1 00:00:03,003 --> 00:00:05,506 [♪ gentle music playing] 2 00:00:12,804 --> 00:00:14,097 Stop talking and listen! 3 00:00:15,098 --> 00:00:16,934 -No, I am listening. -The therapist said, "Be a mom." 4 00:00:17,017 --> 00:00:18,435 Okay, you just told me to ask. 5 00:00:18,519 --> 00:00:20,729 Didn't you just ask me to explain it to you? 6 00:00:20,812 --> 00:00:23,732 Now you're telling me to listen. So, which one do you want? 7 00:00:23,815 --> 00:00:26,276 Do you want me to listen or do you want me to tell you? 8 00:00:26,360 --> 00:00:29,071 -Both. Communicate. -No, you just told me to stop and listen 9 00:00:29,154 --> 00:00:31,573 -so, I'm listening. I'm listening. -Well, you had your turn. 10 00:00:31,657 --> 00:00:33,492 My mom and I just landed in Colorado. 11 00:00:33,575 --> 00:00:35,869 I'm hoping that this trip gives me a little bit of information, 12 00:00:35,953 --> 00:00:38,539 answers, about my biological dad. 13 00:00:38,622 --> 00:00:41,333 But this trip is already... hell 14 00:00:41,416 --> 00:00:44,253 because I don't wanna be in the car anymore with my mom. 15 00:00:44,336 --> 00:00:45,754 You know, it's just very toxic. 16 00:00:46,338 --> 00:00:49,633 Why didn't you ask him? "Dakota, why the fuck are you a fucking liar?" 17 00:00:49,716 --> 00:00:51,385 Why wasn't anyone asking him that? 18 00:00:51,468 --> 00:00:52,928 I don't know. We didn't ask him. 19 00:00:53,011 --> 00:00:55,222 -That's why I'm asking you. -We don't know. I just told you an answer. 20 00:00:55,305 --> 00:00:56,557 -We don't know. -[Taylor] Oh, you don't know? 21 00:00:56,640 --> 00:00:59,017 You shouldn't be with him. That's the whole point! 22 00:00:59,101 --> 00:01:01,812 Sometimes, I just wanna be heard, like, just listened to. 23 00:01:01,895 --> 00:01:04,523 And, like, there's always an opinion or advice. 24 00:01:04,606 --> 00:01:07,693 And maybe I just need to be more clear, "Just listen and say nothing." 25 00:01:07,776 --> 00:01:09,736 I'm sick of talking about Dakota. 26 00:01:10,404 --> 00:01:11,863 This isn't just about Dakota. 27 00:01:11,947 --> 00:01:13,574 No, that's all-- that's all it is. 28 00:01:13,657 --> 00:01:15,909 -You're still hooked up on him. You are. -No, I hate him. 29 00:01:15,993 --> 00:01:17,411 -I hate him. -No, you're hooked up on him. 30 00:01:17,494 --> 00:01:19,663 You're still love-- in love with him. You are! 31 00:01:19,746 --> 00:01:21,873 You want me to have respect for you... 32 00:01:22,541 --> 00:01:24,251 -but you never want respect-- -I don't ask for respect. 33 00:01:24,334 --> 00:01:25,794 Okay, but you want us to back you up 34 00:01:25,877 --> 00:01:27,671 -but you can't even respect me. -No, I don't want you to back-- 35 00:01:27,754 --> 00:01:28,964 Don't back me up. 36 00:01:29,047 --> 00:01:31,133 -No? Then why are you pissed? -Huh? 37 00:01:31,216 --> 00:01:32,509 -[Liann] Why are you pissed then? -I'm asking-- 38 00:01:32,593 --> 00:01:34,219 -If you don't want us to back you up-- -You can't answer. 39 00:01:34,303 --> 00:01:36,138 You haven't answered my goddamn question. 40 00:01:36,221 --> 00:01:38,473 Stop using the Lord's name in vain, please. 41 00:01:38,557 --> 00:01:40,726 ♪♪ 42 00:01:40,809 --> 00:01:42,936 I wanna go home, so I'm going back to the airport. 43 00:01:43,020 --> 00:01:44,187 I don't wanna do this anymore. 44 00:01:46,648 --> 00:01:47,983 ♪ Come thee saints ♪ 45 00:01:48,066 --> 00:01:50,444 ♪ And come thee sinners ♪ 46 00:01:50,527 --> 00:01:54,239 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 47 00:01:54,323 --> 00:01:56,491 ♪ Listen up ♪ 48 00:01:56,575 --> 00:01:59,828 ♪ I'm the one you've been dreaming of ♪ 49 00:01:59,911 --> 00:02:03,707 ♪ I've got everything you could ever want ♪ 50 00:02:03,790 --> 00:02:07,210 ♪ Try me and you'll see I'll bring you to your knees ♪ 51 00:02:07,294 --> 00:02:09,504 ♪ Baby, you're gonna believe ♪ 52 00:02:09,588 --> 00:02:12,591 ♪♪ 53 00:02:17,304 --> 00:02:20,807 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 54 00:02:20,891 --> 00:02:24,728 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 55 00:02:24,811 --> 00:02:28,231 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 56 00:02:28,732 --> 00:02:32,277 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 57 00:02:32,778 --> 00:02:34,196 ♪ Temptation ♪ 58 00:02:37,282 --> 00:02:40,160 [♪ intense music playing] 59 00:02:41,745 --> 00:02:45,374 ♪♪ 60 00:02:45,457 --> 00:02:49,252 ♪ Oh, did you get the memo? ♪ 61 00:02:49,336 --> 00:02:50,754 ♪ Talk about it, hi ♪ 62 00:02:50,837 --> 00:02:52,589 ♪ We can talk about it, yeah ♪ 63 00:02:52,673 --> 00:02:54,257 [Mason] Oh, it's busy today. 64 00:02:54,341 --> 00:02:56,468 I'm not gonna lie, I feel I would have a blast here. 65 00:02:56,551 --> 00:02:58,053 -[Layla] I know. -This is one of those times 66 00:02:58,136 --> 00:02:59,763 where I'm like, "Yeah, I'll just go play with the kids." 67 00:03:03,183 --> 00:03:05,727 Dating as a single mom is incredibly challenging. 68 00:03:05,811 --> 00:03:07,354 My boys are my whole world, 69 00:03:07,437 --> 00:03:09,815 but things are going really good between me and Mason. 70 00:03:09,898 --> 00:03:12,150 We've been together five months officially 71 00:03:12,234 --> 00:03:14,069 and I'm really happy. 72 00:03:14,152 --> 00:03:18,073 I let Mason see my kids maybe once a week. 73 00:03:18,156 --> 00:03:22,661 I just feel like until I know that he truly is in this for the right reasons, 74 00:03:22,744 --> 00:03:25,664 he's not in the place yet to be a father figure around them. 75 00:03:25,747 --> 00:03:27,165 What happened to your arms? 76 00:03:27,666 --> 00:03:30,460 You have-- You-- You look like an elephant with your trunk right here. 77 00:03:31,253 --> 00:03:32,504 Okay, go over there. 78 00:03:32,587 --> 00:03:33,588 Go play. 79 00:03:34,589 --> 00:03:36,967 -Go have fun, bro. -Do the slide-- this slide in the back. 80 00:03:37,050 --> 00:03:38,051 Do the rainbow slide. 81 00:03:39,761 --> 00:03:42,222 [kids squealing] 82 00:03:42,305 --> 00:03:43,473 Your child needs some milk. 83 00:03:43,807 --> 00:03:44,933 Good job! 84 00:03:46,435 --> 00:03:47,686 Are you excited for New York? 85 00:03:48,353 --> 00:03:50,063 -Yes. -It's gonna be fun. 86 00:03:50,147 --> 00:03:52,190 I'm super excited 'cause I'm going to New York tomorrow 87 00:03:52,274 --> 00:03:53,942 to pursue some things with modeling. 88 00:03:54,025 --> 00:03:55,902 Mason's also coming along with me to New York, 89 00:03:55,986 --> 00:03:58,238 and I'm really excited to have him come support me. 90 00:03:58,321 --> 00:03:59,865 I've been modeling since I was a little girl, 91 00:03:59,948 --> 00:04:03,410 and I've done small shows and modeled for boutiques and things like that, 92 00:04:03,493 --> 00:04:07,038 but I had to put a big hold on it being a mom, 93 00:04:07,122 --> 00:04:10,751 but I am excited to be able to put myself first for a second. 94 00:04:10,834 --> 00:04:12,627 I mean, I don't have these legs for no reason, you know? 95 00:04:12,711 --> 00:04:13,754 They need to be on a runway. 96 00:04:15,338 --> 00:04:17,340 I have a meeting lined up with Ford, 97 00:04:17,424 --> 00:04:19,509 -with the modeling agency. -Are you serious? 98 00:04:19,593 --> 00:04:20,761 [Layla] Yeah. 99 00:04:20,844 --> 00:04:21,887 [Mason] You nervous? 100 00:04:21,970 --> 00:04:23,305 [Layla] I'm excited but nervous. 101 00:04:23,388 --> 00:04:26,641 Just being able to get a meeting with them is a big deal, so. 102 00:04:26,725 --> 00:04:30,061 Is that like one of the bigger ones, like, in the world or something, right? 103 00:04:30,145 --> 00:04:31,813 -[Layla] Yeah. -That's sick. 104 00:04:31,897 --> 00:04:33,356 I'm excited you're gonna be there. 105 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:34,524 It's gonna be a fun trip. 106 00:04:34,608 --> 00:04:36,318 Five more minutes, 'kay? 107 00:04:36,401 --> 00:04:38,153 -Okay, go. -Hey, five minutes. 108 00:04:38,570 --> 00:04:40,572 All us girls are getting such cool opportunities 109 00:04:40,655 --> 00:04:42,365 like the girls, Dancing with the Stars, 110 00:04:42,449 --> 00:04:44,075 and Taylor, Bachelorette. 111 00:04:44,159 --> 00:04:45,160 Yeah. 112 00:04:45,243 --> 00:04:47,829 And I kind of get my chance now 113 00:04:47,913 --> 00:04:51,708 just 'cause I've been dreaming of doing modeling since I was little. 114 00:04:53,043 --> 00:04:54,377 [Mason] We gotta get dinner soon. 115 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:56,129 We should for sure go in five. 116 00:04:57,422 --> 00:04:59,716 They can have, like, 10. They're fine. 117 00:05:00,634 --> 00:05:02,844 I did say five minutes a few seconds ago. 118 00:05:02,928 --> 00:05:04,054 Yeah, but... 119 00:05:04,471 --> 00:05:05,806 This is so... 120 00:05:07,265 --> 00:05:08,266 [Layla] What? 121 00:05:09,142 --> 00:05:11,520 They're having fun. Dinner can wait. 122 00:05:11,603 --> 00:05:14,481 Maybe we should compromise, call it seven. 123 00:05:15,732 --> 00:05:16,900 No, 10. 124 00:05:16,983 --> 00:05:19,194 I just feel like, with kids sometimes, 125 00:05:19,277 --> 00:05:20,904 "Hey, can I have another five minutes, 126 00:05:20,987 --> 00:05:22,489 another five minutes, another five minutes?" 127 00:05:23,323 --> 00:05:25,534 You know, like, I feel like they just like push you 128 00:05:25,617 --> 00:05:27,786 and see how far they can get away with you sometimes 129 00:05:27,869 --> 00:05:30,914 and they just kind of get away with a lot, 130 00:05:30,997 --> 00:05:32,165 -almost like... -Maybe. 131 00:05:32,249 --> 00:05:34,376 -...who's controlling who, a little bit. -Yeah. 132 00:05:37,212 --> 00:05:38,213 Yeah. 133 00:05:39,005 --> 00:05:41,633 I guess I just feel like you should put your foot down a little bit more. 134 00:05:41,716 --> 00:05:43,593 There definitely has been a few times in the past 135 00:05:43,677 --> 00:05:47,222 that Mason seems very annoyed with my boys. 136 00:05:47,722 --> 00:05:49,891 I'm definitely scared to bring up these things with Mason. 137 00:05:49,975 --> 00:05:52,143 I'm afraid it would potentially scare him off, 138 00:05:52,227 --> 00:05:56,731 or I would come off too strong and he wouldn't know how to handle it. 139 00:05:57,399 --> 00:06:00,485 I just-- I don't wanna ruin the relationship before New York 140 00:06:00,569 --> 00:06:02,279 and I just don't want things to be awkward, 141 00:06:02,362 --> 00:06:03,613 or heated, or feel contention. 142 00:06:03,697 --> 00:06:06,157 So, I just don't think right now is the time to bring it up. 143 00:06:06,241 --> 00:06:09,619 ♪♪ 144 00:06:15,375 --> 00:06:19,254 ♪ Come rescue me ♪ 145 00:06:25,218 --> 00:06:28,471 Let's just try to get along while we're here. 146 00:06:28,555 --> 00:06:29,681 We came all this way. 147 00:06:32,934 --> 00:06:34,269 Even though I did wanna go home, 148 00:06:34,352 --> 00:06:37,022 I still wanna learn more about my biological father, Brian, 149 00:06:37,105 --> 00:06:39,858 so I wanna sweep everything with my mom, that just happened, under the rug 150 00:06:39,941 --> 00:06:43,486 so we can actually be present here and get the most out of what we came for. 151 00:06:44,821 --> 00:06:47,073 -Hi. -Hi. I'm Steve Lopez. 152 00:06:47,157 --> 00:06:48,992 -Taylor. Nice to meet you. -What's going on? Likewise. 153 00:06:49,075 --> 00:06:50,577 Hey! How are you? 154 00:06:51,620 --> 00:06:52,704 You look nice. 155 00:06:52,787 --> 00:06:55,290 I've known Steve since I was in high school. 156 00:06:55,373 --> 00:06:57,959 He knew Brian throughout his life 157 00:06:58,043 --> 00:07:01,296 and he was probably the best resource for Taylor 158 00:07:01,379 --> 00:07:04,633 to ask any questions that she might have. 159 00:07:05,216 --> 00:07:06,551 You want me to start from the top or? 160 00:07:06,635 --> 00:07:07,761 -[Liann] Yeah. -Yeah! Go for it. 161 00:07:07,844 --> 00:07:09,679 [Steve] All right, so Brian was just a great person. 162 00:07:09,763 --> 00:07:11,556 Super, super, super intelligent. 163 00:07:11,640 --> 00:07:14,059 -That's what everyone says about him. -[Steve] Super intelligent. 164 00:07:14,142 --> 00:07:17,312 He was a tough kid, was also a Taurus, I don't know if that matters, so-- 165 00:07:17,395 --> 00:07:19,356 Taurus-- I don't know much about like the Taurus ones. 166 00:07:19,439 --> 00:07:21,733 -They, like, have a anger-- -[Steve] Bullheaded, I guess. 167 00:07:21,816 --> 00:07:23,318 -Yeah, like a bull. -[Taylor] Oh, really? Mm. 168 00:07:23,401 --> 00:07:26,488 Kinda like, you know, show 'em red and they go crazy, I don't know. 169 00:07:26,571 --> 00:07:28,573 Oh, maybe that's where I get half of that from, maybe, 170 00:07:28,657 --> 00:07:30,784 -the other half from you. -I guess. 171 00:07:30,867 --> 00:07:31,952 [Taylor chuckling] 172 00:07:32,035 --> 00:07:33,244 [Steve] He used to fight a lot. 173 00:07:33,328 --> 00:07:35,538 All the fights he got into, they started it with him. 174 00:07:35,622 --> 00:07:37,874 -Oh, really? Why? -Yeah. I don't know. 175 00:07:37,958 --> 00:07:39,626 That's how I feel, everyone just starts fights with me 176 00:07:39,709 --> 00:07:40,877 and I have to fight. 177 00:07:40,961 --> 00:07:42,545 [Steve] He ends up going to the marines. 178 00:07:42,629 --> 00:07:45,757 After the basic training, he comes back, 179 00:07:45,840 --> 00:07:47,217 so that's two years before you're born, 180 00:07:47,300 --> 00:07:49,552 and he gets in a horrible car accident. 181 00:07:50,053 --> 00:07:51,179 So, he breaks his neck 182 00:07:51,721 --> 00:07:53,181 and that just changes everything. 183 00:07:54,391 --> 00:07:55,642 He just never recovered. 184 00:07:57,644 --> 00:07:58,687 [Steve] Super. 185 00:08:01,147 --> 00:08:02,732 -No. I think it would've been different-- -Yeah, 'cause he was like really happy 186 00:08:02,816 --> 00:08:05,777 -in high school, like that jock-- -[Steve] Super cool. Straight-- 187 00:08:05,860 --> 00:08:09,864 Yeah, football, healthy, sm-- smart, strong. 188 00:08:09,948 --> 00:08:12,659 How old-- So, when was the car accident? How old was he? 189 00:08:12,742 --> 00:08:13,827 Um, probably 19. 190 00:08:13,910 --> 00:08:16,079 Brian and I met when I was 15. 191 00:08:16,162 --> 00:08:19,457 The car accident he was in changed him completely 192 00:08:19,541 --> 00:08:20,917 but I stayed with him. 193 00:08:21,001 --> 00:08:22,419 I felt like I was in love with him. 194 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:26,840 Brian had that hold on me that I-- I feel like Dakota has on Taylor. 195 00:08:27,507 --> 00:08:29,676 [Steve] Brian got the worst of it. He was in the backseat, broke his neck. 196 00:08:29,759 --> 00:08:34,180 Um, '93 rolls around and he discovered cocaine. 197 00:08:34,764 --> 00:08:35,765 Yeah. 198 00:08:36,516 --> 00:08:40,061 And, well, then, crystal meth comes in at some point in the late '90s. 199 00:08:40,145 --> 00:08:42,147 -It just never-- it's just-- -Damn. 200 00:08:42,230 --> 00:08:45,650 It breaks my heart. It-- It always did. And I always tried to help him out. 201 00:08:45,734 --> 00:08:48,278 He had an overdose in 2015. 202 00:08:48,361 --> 00:08:49,612 Oh, wow! I did not hear any of that. 203 00:08:49,696 --> 00:08:53,116 I think that just sent him down because he was gone about a year later. 204 00:08:53,783 --> 00:08:54,951 It's wild. 205 00:08:55,368 --> 00:08:57,954 -It's a lot to take in. -Yeah. Um... 206 00:09:00,123 --> 00:09:01,624 I don't know. How is this for you? 207 00:09:01,708 --> 00:09:04,586 -Is it just like a kind of a blur? -No, I-- 208 00:09:04,669 --> 00:09:06,463 I just feel like you don't remember anything about him. 209 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:10,467 I remember him but, I mean, I just-- I remember fighting most of the time. 210 00:09:10,550 --> 00:09:13,928 Yeah. So, maybe it's not something you like to talk about now? 211 00:09:14,012 --> 00:09:15,013 I don't know. 212 00:09:15,764 --> 00:09:16,765 I just remember one incident, 213 00:09:16,848 --> 00:09:18,767 I'm not gonna say that on camera though, but-- 214 00:09:18,850 --> 00:09:20,310 -[Liann] What? -What was it? Yeah. 215 00:09:20,393 --> 00:09:23,980 The reservoir. He was just kind of-- had a temper. 216 00:09:24,064 --> 00:09:25,774 -[Liann] Oh, yeah. -[Liann] I'll just say that. 217 00:09:25,857 --> 00:09:27,692 If I recall-- I think he kicked you in the stomach. 218 00:09:27,776 --> 00:09:28,777 [Liann] Yeah. 219 00:09:29,778 --> 00:09:31,738 -[Taylor] Like, in front of everyone? -[Steve] Yeah. 220 00:09:32,363 --> 00:09:34,574 It was a really toxic relationship. 221 00:09:34,657 --> 00:09:36,326 -[Steve] Yeah, he was very jealous. -[Liann] Very jealous. 222 00:09:36,409 --> 00:09:38,411 He dragged me out of a club one time. 223 00:09:39,579 --> 00:09:41,623 [Taylor] Hearing that my biological father, 224 00:09:41,706 --> 00:09:43,083 he would like kick her in front of everyone, 225 00:09:43,166 --> 00:09:44,876 you know, it was really sad. 226 00:09:44,959 --> 00:09:46,544 I just didn't know it was to that extent 227 00:09:46,628 --> 00:09:50,757 so it makes me actually feel for her, um, 'cause I think she just gets triggered. 228 00:09:50,840 --> 00:09:54,552 And when she sees any toxicity in like my life or my relationship, 229 00:09:54,636 --> 00:09:56,596 I think I need to give her that grace 230 00:09:56,679 --> 00:09:58,181 because I don't think she's ever been heard. 231 00:09:58,681 --> 00:10:00,266 When I found out I was pregnant with Taylor, 232 00:10:00,350 --> 00:10:03,186 we had just broken up and then I find out I'm pregnant with her. 233 00:10:03,269 --> 00:10:05,480 I didn't want anything to do with him. 234 00:10:05,563 --> 00:10:08,525 And then, after I had the baby, we kind of got back together 235 00:10:08,608 --> 00:10:09,901 and then I'm like, "Oh, no." 236 00:10:09,984 --> 00:10:11,903 'Cause that's what he started doing... 237 00:10:11,986 --> 00:10:13,530 -[Steve] So I do recall, like... -...drugs. 238 00:10:13,613 --> 00:10:16,366 ...you met Jeremy, and then Jeremy ended up adopting you, right? 239 00:10:16,533 --> 00:10:18,201 -[Taylor] Yeah. -[Steve] And Brian just, I guess, 240 00:10:18,284 --> 00:10:19,494 at that point, was just so far gone. 241 00:10:19,577 --> 00:10:22,080 He was just like, "I'm just gonna stay out of this. 242 00:10:22,163 --> 00:10:23,164 Kinda stay out of it." 243 00:10:24,541 --> 00:10:28,378 Jeremy came into our lives, like, at the lowest time of my life. 244 00:10:28,461 --> 00:10:31,673 Taylor was just a little over a year old. 245 00:10:31,756 --> 00:10:35,260 And I feel that he saved me, 246 00:10:35,426 --> 00:10:37,595 and I feel like that he saved Taylor. 247 00:10:38,138 --> 00:10:41,432 [Steve] I brought some pictures here. I brought you a handful of 'em. 248 00:10:41,516 --> 00:10:43,810 -That I've had, uh... -[Taylor] That's so cool. 249 00:10:43,893 --> 00:10:46,229 [Steve] That's his senior picture, you can kinda see. 250 00:10:46,312 --> 00:10:49,023 [Taylor] I have his little smirk, I do know that. 251 00:10:49,190 --> 00:10:51,234 He reminds me a lot of my son, that's crazy. 252 00:10:51,317 --> 00:10:54,028 Like, my youngest, which is just interesting. 253 00:10:54,571 --> 00:10:56,364 It'd be his like little mini if he was here. 254 00:10:56,865 --> 00:10:58,366 He walks like him, too. He has the same feet. 255 00:10:58,449 --> 00:10:59,617 -[Steve] Oh, yeah? -It's weird. 256 00:10:59,701 --> 00:11:03,329 I would always have dreams about him, like, even when I moved to Utah, 257 00:11:03,413 --> 00:11:06,708 that he was gonna show up on our doorstep, like, for both of us. 258 00:11:06,791 --> 00:11:07,876 But he never did. 259 00:11:08,710 --> 00:11:13,673 I didn't know my mom feared Brian, um, in that way. 260 00:11:13,756 --> 00:11:16,926 There is a part of me that wonders what else she hasn't told me? 261 00:11:17,010 --> 00:11:18,553 What else was going on? 262 00:11:18,636 --> 00:11:21,347 What else happened that you're not saying or maybe never will? 263 00:11:21,431 --> 00:11:24,601 I think if he was still around, he would've made peace with you by now, 264 00:11:24,684 --> 00:11:26,436 or just attempted to reach out. 265 00:11:26,936 --> 00:11:29,147 Um, just wasn't in his right mind. He was a great guy. 266 00:11:29,230 --> 00:11:30,690 I wouldn't take it personal, for sure. 267 00:11:30,773 --> 00:11:33,693 ♪♪ 268 00:11:33,776 --> 00:11:35,361 ♪ Woke up to the birds singing ♪ 269 00:11:35,445 --> 00:11:36,654 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 270 00:11:36,738 --> 00:11:37,947 ♪ Can you feel the energy? ♪ 271 00:11:38,031 --> 00:11:39,032 ♪ Darling, do ya? ♪ 272 00:11:39,115 --> 00:11:41,868 ♪ Oh, the weekend couldn't have come sooner ♪ 273 00:11:41,951 --> 00:11:44,621 ♪ Only see good days in my future ♪ 274 00:11:44,704 --> 00:11:46,748 -Oh, would you look at this? -[Jessi] What? 275 00:11:46,831 --> 00:11:48,374 [Jordan] Looks good so far. 276 00:11:48,791 --> 00:11:50,251 I know. I'm trying to be festive. 277 00:11:52,545 --> 00:11:54,505 I can't even pick these up. These are so heavy. 278 00:11:55,256 --> 00:11:57,217 Jordan and I have just been really stuck. 279 00:11:57,300 --> 00:11:59,636 I'm just trying to keep my head above water, 280 00:11:59,719 --> 00:12:01,679 trying not to make any drastic moves right now 281 00:12:01,763 --> 00:12:04,140 while we figure it out, but it is getting exhausting. 282 00:12:04,224 --> 00:12:06,851 And I genuinely don't know what the right decision is. 283 00:12:06,935 --> 00:12:08,394 Have you talked to Dakota lately? 284 00:12:08,478 --> 00:12:10,939 [Jordan] Yeah, I went over to his-- and saw his new house. 285 00:12:11,022 --> 00:12:13,274 Did you help him, like, decorate or anything? 286 00:12:13,358 --> 00:12:16,027 Uh, no, it's pretty much a bachelor's pad. 287 00:12:16,110 --> 00:12:18,029 I mean, he did tell me he's seeing somebody. 288 00:12:18,112 --> 00:12:19,113 [Jessi] Really? 289 00:12:19,197 --> 00:12:21,783 [Jordan] He told me that it's someone that we know but we don't-- 290 00:12:21,866 --> 00:12:24,494 -but he won't tell me who it is. -[Jessi] Huh? 291 00:12:24,577 --> 00:12:26,621 [Jordan] So this girl you're seeing exclusively... 292 00:12:26,704 --> 00:12:29,165 [Dakota] I've been playing a little bit with fire. 293 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:31,668 -[Jordan] Is she in Taylor's circle? -Well, this isn't even-- Yeah. 294 00:12:31,751 --> 00:12:34,295 -[sighs] Yeah. -[Jordan groans] 295 00:12:34,462 --> 00:12:36,339 -[Jessi] He won't tell you who it is? -He's being weird about it. 296 00:12:36,673 --> 00:12:39,175 -And it's someone we know? Is he serious? -[Jordan] Yeah. 297 00:12:39,259 --> 00:12:41,511 Dakota's single, and he can do whatever he wants, 298 00:12:41,594 --> 00:12:45,515 but what worries me is Taylor's mindset when she hears about him doing things 299 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:47,809 because we all saw what happened 300 00:12:47,892 --> 00:12:50,186 when she heard about the DadTok trip to England. 301 00:12:50,270 --> 00:12:52,105 I just wanna know if you, like, enjoyed it? 302 00:12:53,731 --> 00:12:56,526 -[Dakota] Taylor... -No, I'm freaking so sad. 303 00:12:56,609 --> 00:12:58,611 -He just says he likes her-- -Wait, okay, did he think that 304 00:12:58,695 --> 00:13:00,989 whoever it is would cause a problem with Taylor? 305 00:13:01,072 --> 00:13:05,660 I said, "On a scale of 1 to 10, like, how bad is it?" 306 00:13:05,743 --> 00:13:06,953 And he said, "A nine." 307 00:13:07,829 --> 00:13:09,455 -Are you kidding? -Yeah. 308 00:13:10,873 --> 00:13:12,500 Maybe it's Miranda [chuckles]. 309 00:13:12,583 --> 00:13:14,627 It's not Mir-- Shut up! It's not Miranda. 310 00:13:14,711 --> 00:13:16,879 -I dunno, but he-- -Is it Shinia? 311 00:13:17,213 --> 00:13:19,340 That was my first reaction was like, "Is it Shinia?" 312 00:13:19,424 --> 00:13:20,425 Then, he said no. 313 00:13:21,634 --> 00:13:23,803 Shinia and Taylor are incredibly close, 314 00:13:23,886 --> 00:13:27,098 but they are close enough for Shinia to know that Dakota's off-limits. 315 00:13:27,181 --> 00:13:29,475 We were all just hanging out with Shinia at pickleball. 316 00:13:29,559 --> 00:13:32,103 Shinia confided in Taylor about the guy she was seeing 317 00:13:32,186 --> 00:13:34,897 and Taylor consoled her and hugged her, and was giving her advice. 318 00:13:34,981 --> 00:13:36,941 Update me. What-- What's the verdict? 319 00:13:37,942 --> 00:13:39,861 Honestly, like-- oh, no! 320 00:13:39,944 --> 00:13:41,779 -Do you have tennis elbow? -[Taylor] Why? 321 00:13:42,947 --> 00:13:44,365 I really hope it's not Shinia. 322 00:13:44,449 --> 00:13:46,784 It would rattle so many friendships within MomTok. 323 00:13:47,285 --> 00:13:49,620 -Do you have any other clues, like who-- -I mean, I-- 324 00:13:49,704 --> 00:13:51,164 The other day, we were going to the gym, 325 00:13:51,247 --> 00:13:53,416 and I was seeing where he was, 'cause we were supposed to meet there, 326 00:13:53,499 --> 00:13:55,710 and I saw that he was at this apartment complex and-- 327 00:13:55,793 --> 00:13:56,919 You have his location? 328 00:13:57,003 --> 00:13:58,296 Yeah, we all have each other's location. 329 00:13:58,379 --> 00:13:59,756 What do you mean all? Like, Chase? 330 00:13:59,839 --> 00:14:01,299 Me and all my friends have each other's locations. 331 00:14:01,382 --> 00:14:03,259 -That is so weird. -I don't have anything to hide. 332 00:14:03,926 --> 00:14:06,512 So, I saw that he was coming from this apartment complex in Lehi, 333 00:14:06,596 --> 00:14:09,766 and he was like, "Oh, it's just, you know, just this girl." 334 00:14:10,099 --> 00:14:11,642 Shinia lives in Lehi, I'm pretty sure. 335 00:14:12,393 --> 00:14:15,271 And if it's someone in the friend group, that's Miranda's best friend. 336 00:14:15,355 --> 00:14:16,939 And she's been around Taylor a lot, 337 00:14:17,023 --> 00:14:18,816 -and she comments on Taylor's stuff... -I really don't think it's her. 338 00:14:18,900 --> 00:14:20,109 ...and Taylor comments on her stuff. 339 00:14:20,193 --> 00:14:21,527 I just don't know who else it would be. 340 00:14:21,611 --> 00:14:24,197 I'm starting to feel like the girl Dakota's seeing 341 00:14:24,280 --> 00:14:26,199 could very well be Shinia. 342 00:14:26,282 --> 00:14:29,160 I didn't think Dakota would do something like this to piss Taylor off, 343 00:14:29,243 --> 00:14:32,372 but I'm also not surprised because everyone Dakota chooses 344 00:14:32,455 --> 00:14:34,332 is someone that would piss Taylor off. 345 00:14:34,415 --> 00:14:35,500 ♪♪ 346 00:14:35,583 --> 00:14:38,336 How dumb is he? Why does he keep doing shit like this? 347 00:14:38,419 --> 00:14:40,880 [♪ dramatic music playing] 348 00:14:45,051 --> 00:14:47,136 ♪♪ 349 00:14:47,220 --> 00:14:48,554 ♪ All the luck go out ♪ 350 00:14:48,638 --> 00:14:50,807 ♪ I'm the new girl that you're talking about ♪ 351 00:14:51,349 --> 00:14:52,809 ♪ I don't care for clout ♪ 352 00:14:52,892 --> 00:14:55,269 ♪ And I'm what your man still dreams about ♪ 353 00:14:55,353 --> 00:14:58,064 ♪♪ 354 00:15:00,024 --> 00:15:01,025 Hi. 355 00:15:01,901 --> 00:15:02,902 -Brett. -Amazing. 356 00:15:04,529 --> 00:15:05,530 Okay, perfect. Thank you. 357 00:15:06,322 --> 00:15:08,074 I'm meeting with the agency Ford today 358 00:15:08,157 --> 00:15:10,618 to talk about my potential of signing with them. 359 00:15:10,701 --> 00:15:12,995 This is a very cutthroat industry to be a part of. 360 00:15:13,079 --> 00:15:14,872 Modeling agencies are looking at you up and down 361 00:15:14,956 --> 00:15:17,250 and judging you if you're good enough for them or not, 362 00:15:17,333 --> 00:15:21,003 and it's very hard, but it's something I really want for myself super badly. 363 00:15:21,087 --> 00:15:23,464 And being signed with one of the biggest agencies in the world 364 00:15:23,548 --> 00:15:25,216 would just be such an honor. 365 00:15:25,716 --> 00:15:28,010 -[Brett] Hello. Layla? How are you? -Hello. Hi. 366 00:15:28,094 --> 00:15:29,679 -[Layla] Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you. I'm Brett. 367 00:15:29,762 --> 00:15:30,763 Hi, nice to meet you. 368 00:15:30,847 --> 00:15:32,432 -Hi, I'm Taylor. -Hi, nice to meet you guys. 369 00:15:32,515 --> 00:15:33,683 -So beautiful. -Welcome to Ford. 370 00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:34,767 Thank you for meeting with me. 371 00:15:34,851 --> 00:15:36,185 -I'm so excited. -Absolutely, absolutely. 372 00:15:36,269 --> 00:15:37,562 -Do you wanna come on in? -Yeah, of course. 373 00:15:38,479 --> 00:15:40,898 -[Brett] So, welcome to Ford. -So, I'm from LA. 374 00:15:40,982 --> 00:15:42,984 I'm from the Ford LA team. I'm the director over there. 375 00:15:43,067 --> 00:15:45,778 I'm Brett, so I'm-- work here in the women's board here at Ford. 376 00:15:45,862 --> 00:15:47,447 I've been here for 10 years now. 377 00:15:47,530 --> 00:15:49,657 -[Layla] Amazing. -Yeah, it's almost a decade. 378 00:15:49,740 --> 00:15:51,117 [Taylor] Tell us a little bit about you. 379 00:15:51,200 --> 00:15:53,578 -I am a mom of two little boys. -[Brett] Aw. 380 00:15:53,661 --> 00:15:55,538 They're 4 and 3. They're my whole world. 381 00:15:55,621 --> 00:15:57,707 Um, in terms of modeling and those type of things, 382 00:15:57,790 --> 00:16:02,128 I've been freelance modeling for probably like five-ish years now, 383 00:16:02,211 --> 00:16:04,338 just like things here and there, smaller boutiques here in Utah 384 00:16:04,422 --> 00:16:07,133 but I've always had a love for modeling ever since I was little, 385 00:16:07,216 --> 00:16:09,302 I've always had a dream of like being on a runway. 386 00:16:09,385 --> 00:16:13,389 But I feel like I'm in the place right now that, like, I've done a lot of things, 387 00:16:13,473 --> 00:16:15,975 booking things on my own and getting things started for myself, 388 00:16:16,058 --> 00:16:18,311 but now I just feel like I need guidance in this world. 389 00:16:18,394 --> 00:16:20,480 It's just such a big world to navigate. 390 00:16:20,563 --> 00:16:22,607 How is your book? Do you have like good images or? 391 00:16:22,690 --> 00:16:24,317 I have some good digitals that I have gotten, yeah. 392 00:16:24,400 --> 00:16:25,860 I haven't put together an official book yet. 393 00:16:25,943 --> 00:16:27,778 -[Brett] Okay. -But I have a couple of sets of digitals. 394 00:16:27,862 --> 00:16:29,864 [Brett] So, that would be another thing that we would wanna do. 395 00:16:29,947 --> 00:16:32,450 We would have to test you. Uh, work with different photographers 396 00:16:32,533 --> 00:16:34,952 and put together a book that then we would show clients. 397 00:16:35,036 --> 00:16:38,247 Okay. Is me coming out once a month to New York a good amount, 398 00:16:38,331 --> 00:16:40,374 -or do you think I would need to do more? -I'll be honest with you, 399 00:16:40,458 --> 00:16:42,627 we really would need a commitment from you 400 00:16:42,710 --> 00:16:45,463 of three or four months, here, on the ground 401 00:16:45,546 --> 00:16:48,424 where you're able to run to test shoots, go on castings, 402 00:16:48,508 --> 00:16:50,426 -really get your foot in the door. -[Layla] Totally. 403 00:16:50,510 --> 00:16:52,929 But it just takes a little bit of time to break into it 404 00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:55,848 and I feel like if you just come here once a month, it's-- 405 00:16:55,932 --> 00:16:56,933 You're gonna go back 406 00:16:57,016 --> 00:16:59,393 and you're just gonna kind of reverse everything that you just-- 407 00:16:59,477 --> 00:17:00,770 [Taylor] Kind of have to start over. 408 00:17:00,853 --> 00:17:02,855 Hearing that I would have to move to New York for three months 409 00:17:02,939 --> 00:17:04,565 to complete my portfolio... 410 00:17:04,649 --> 00:17:07,151 [Brett] I would love to actually see your walk, if you don't mind. 411 00:17:07,235 --> 00:17:08,945 [Layla] ...I don't know how I would do it with my boys 412 00:17:09,028 --> 00:17:10,321 and my relationship with Mason, 413 00:17:10,404 --> 00:17:12,365 but I'm also kind of excited at the thought of it. 414 00:17:12,448 --> 00:17:13,908 I think it would be worth it in the end. 415 00:17:13,991 --> 00:17:16,619 [Brett] Moving forward, uh, we're gonna get together with the other agents 416 00:17:16,702 --> 00:17:20,915 and then figure out, you know, if we see you as a good fit for Ford. 417 00:17:20,998 --> 00:17:22,667 -[Layla] Okay. -Um, and then we'll be in touch. 418 00:17:22,750 --> 00:17:24,919 -Well, it was so great meeting you. -[Taylor] I'm so happy we got to meet you. 419 00:17:25,002 --> 00:17:26,587 -Thank you so much for coming in. -I appreciate it so much. 420 00:17:26,671 --> 00:17:29,882 Signing with Ford would be life-changing for me with my modeling career. 421 00:17:29,966 --> 00:17:31,926 I feel good about this and, 422 00:17:32,009 --> 00:17:34,387 I don't know, just fingers crossed that this goes a good way. 423 00:17:34,470 --> 00:17:35,555 -After you. -Thank you so much. 424 00:17:35,638 --> 00:17:36,806 Thanks so much for coming in. 425 00:17:36,889 --> 00:17:38,975 [♪ upbeat music playing] 426 00:17:40,434 --> 00:17:42,853 ♪ It's always a good time ♪ 427 00:17:42,937 --> 00:17:44,272 [indistinct chatter, laughter] 428 00:17:44,355 --> 00:17:45,356 ♪ It's always... ♪ 429 00:17:45,439 --> 00:17:47,733 -[Jace] Thank you. -[Mikayla] Look like a real man, honey. 430 00:17:47,817 --> 00:17:49,860 -I think it's perfect. -I'm coming for Whitney's job 431 00:17:49,944 --> 00:17:51,487 -on the farm. Yee-haw. -"On the farm"! 432 00:17:51,571 --> 00:17:54,740 Oh, look at you, dude! You look cool! 433 00:17:54,824 --> 00:17:56,284 ♪ Oh, whoa ♪ 434 00:17:56,367 --> 00:17:57,660 [Jordan] You look hella straight with that on. 435 00:17:57,743 --> 00:17:58,786 "You look hella straight." 436 00:17:58,869 --> 00:18:00,288 -[Mayci] Straight! -[Mikayla] That means no. 437 00:18:00,371 --> 00:18:01,831 ♪ Oh, whoa ♪ 438 00:18:01,914 --> 00:18:04,041 [Mayci] Today is the first day of the Red West Festival, 439 00:18:04,125 --> 00:18:06,127 which is a country concert in Utah. 440 00:18:06,210 --> 00:18:08,963 Jacob helped with the marketing so he got us all these tickets. 441 00:18:09,046 --> 00:18:12,633 He gave Dakota a VIP pass and I yelled at him for it. 442 00:18:12,717 --> 00:18:15,928 I'm like-- [grunts] But Taylor is in Colorado right now. 443 00:18:16,012 --> 00:18:18,139 And I'm really looking forward to listening to some music, 444 00:18:18,222 --> 00:18:21,017 having some fun without any drama. 445 00:18:21,100 --> 00:18:22,810 Hey, you guys, look at Dakota. 446 00:18:22,893 --> 00:18:24,145 Nice to meet you. I'm Dakota. 447 00:18:24,228 --> 00:18:25,771 -[woman] Nice to meet you. -[Dakota] Nice to meet you! 448 00:18:25,855 --> 00:18:28,774 On the way over, Jordan was like, "Yeah, Dakota has like a roster of girls." 449 00:18:28,858 --> 00:18:32,945 Jordan said, "There's one in particular that, like, I think would cause an issue." 450 00:18:33,029 --> 00:18:35,448 And I was like, "What do you mean?" He's like, "I can't say yet." 451 00:18:41,120 --> 00:18:42,121 Jordan hasn't told me 452 00:18:42,204 --> 00:18:44,790 who this mystery person that Dakota's talking to is, 453 00:18:44,874 --> 00:18:46,626 and I feel like he's trying to protect Dakota. 454 00:18:46,709 --> 00:18:49,837 So, for the sake of my marriage, I shouldn't be saying anything. 455 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:52,298 But this is something that really could shake up Taylor 456 00:18:52,381 --> 00:18:54,091 and how do I just keep this a secret? 457 00:18:54,425 --> 00:18:56,344 -[Mayci] So... -I said that there was a girl-- 458 00:18:56,427 --> 00:18:58,638 Who's the girl Dakota's talking to? 459 00:18:58,721 --> 00:19:01,223 So, who's the girl that Taylor would be mad about? 460 00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:02,642 -Oh, I'm not... -Yeah. 461 00:19:03,726 --> 00:19:06,062 -[Mayci talking indistinctly] -No, no, no, no, no, no. 462 00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:08,064 Dakota's finally told me who he's been seeing 463 00:19:08,147 --> 00:19:10,441 and after the aftermath of the villa... 464 00:19:10,524 --> 00:19:14,278 We can't tell you shit because you will tell her or vice versa. 465 00:19:14,362 --> 00:19:15,946 And she does every time. 466 00:19:16,113 --> 00:19:18,824 I'm keeping my hands out of this and keeping my mouth shut. 467 00:19:18,908 --> 00:19:21,619 So, who's the girl that's gonna cause issues? 468 00:19:21,702 --> 00:19:23,037 -Issues? -With Taylor. 469 00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:24,705 They're trying to figure out who another girl is 470 00:19:24,789 --> 00:19:26,874 Dakota hooked up with, or is dating, or something. 471 00:19:26,957 --> 00:19:29,794 So, it must be someone consequential then. 472 00:19:30,753 --> 00:19:32,755 -No, I mean, there's like-- -Is Jordan lying or-- 473 00:19:32,838 --> 00:19:34,632 We don't care, let's just be clear. 474 00:19:34,715 --> 00:19:37,968 I don't know if Dakota's trying to play coy keeping this secret, 475 00:19:38,052 --> 00:19:41,263 or if he's genuinely just terrified of us, as he should be. 476 00:19:41,347 --> 00:19:43,099 But clearly he's hiding something. 477 00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:46,519 It's not like us to let that just slip under the radar. 478 00:19:46,936 --> 00:19:49,814 It's time to go full FBI on this bitch. 479 00:19:49,897 --> 00:19:51,232 [chuckling] "Full FBI." 480 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:53,651 So we are 100% gonna get to the bottom of it. 481 00:20:04,203 --> 00:20:06,580 I feel like I have reason to believe it's Shinia. 482 00:20:06,664 --> 00:20:08,332 I just don't know who else it would be. 483 00:20:08,416 --> 00:20:10,292 I feel like as I start talking to Dakota, 484 00:20:10,376 --> 00:20:13,379 I'm just gonna pretend I know and call him out and see what happens. 485 00:20:28,436 --> 00:20:29,437 With who? 486 00:20:33,315 --> 00:20:34,734 It doesn't matter how it happened! 487 00:20:37,653 --> 00:20:39,238 [♪ dramatic music playing] 488 00:20:40,448 --> 00:20:41,449 What? 489 00:20:48,372 --> 00:20:50,124 ♪♪ 490 00:20:51,250 --> 00:20:53,919 [♪ dramatic music playing] 491 00:20:55,045 --> 00:20:56,046 I knew it. I knew it. 492 00:20:56,130 --> 00:20:58,591 [♪ dramatic music playing] 493 00:21:03,387 --> 00:21:06,265 [audience cheering] 494 00:21:06,348 --> 00:21:09,560 -[Mayci] Dakota! -Dakota, that's so bad. 495 00:21:09,643 --> 00:21:10,895 -I'm so mad. -Mad! 496 00:21:10,978 --> 00:21:12,229 -Why are you mad? -Who is it? 497 00:21:12,313 --> 00:21:15,107 -[Jordan] She's gonna be The Bachelorette. -[Jessi] That is so inappropriate. 498 00:21:15,191 --> 00:21:19,236 Yes. I've been seeing Shinia. Yeah. 499 00:21:19,737 --> 00:21:22,406 Dakota confirms that I was right, so I knew. 500 00:21:22,490 --> 00:21:24,575 Right when I think Dakota couldn't get any dumber, 501 00:21:24,658 --> 00:21:25,785 he gets dumber. 502 00:21:27,286 --> 00:21:29,997 I do think Dakota is doing this just to get back at Taylor 503 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,708 and make her jealous and have her come running back to him. 504 00:21:33,209 --> 00:21:34,752 She's Miranda's best friend. 505 00:21:34,835 --> 00:21:35,878 Miranda knows. 506 00:21:35,961 --> 00:21:38,047 -Oh! -Wow, that makes it so much better! 507 00:21:38,130 --> 00:21:40,257 I'm more pissed at her because she's friends with Taylor. 508 00:21:40,341 --> 00:21:41,342 -No, she's not. -That's messed up. 509 00:21:41,425 --> 00:21:42,802 -[Jessi] Yes, she is. -Shinia's not friends with-- 510 00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:46,305 Yeah, she made out with her! 511 00:21:47,598 --> 00:21:49,809 That's why-- Oh! 512 00:21:52,686 --> 00:21:54,021 [Dakota] I just didn't want this to come out 513 00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:56,273 -before Taylor leaves. -No, I-- Yeah, I agree. 514 00:21:56,357 --> 00:21:59,276 Taylor could fly off the handle over this, and I think she would. 515 00:21:59,360 --> 00:22:01,529 Yeah, and I-- That's why I was scared. 516 00:22:01,612 --> 00:22:02,947 ...she loses her shit. 517 00:22:03,030 --> 00:22:05,866 Am I scared for Taylor to find out? Of course. 518 00:22:05,950 --> 00:22:07,868 Um, I'm afraid of Taylor finding out anything, 519 00:22:07,952 --> 00:22:09,203 it doesn't matter what it is. 520 00:22:09,286 --> 00:22:12,081 If I'm trying to talk to a girl, I'm scared of Taylor finding that out. 521 00:22:12,164 --> 00:22:14,750 I just think-- You're not doing anything wrong, you're single. 522 00:22:17,169 --> 00:22:18,462 [Jessi] What does that mean? 523 00:22:20,714 --> 00:22:23,968 I just was dumb. I think I was just, like, in a kind of stupid-- I-- 524 00:22:26,428 --> 00:22:27,429 -Yes! -Do you need help? 525 00:22:28,556 --> 00:22:30,641 No. No, I can't tell you what happened. 526 00:22:32,268 --> 00:22:36,897 Taylor still reacts poorly to things that Dakota does, so I feel like-- 527 00:22:36,981 --> 00:22:38,440 His dating life is none of our business, 528 00:22:38,524 --> 00:22:40,276 but we just don't want Taylor crashing out 529 00:22:40,359 --> 00:22:42,528 and ruining her opportunity to go on Bachelorette 530 00:22:42,611 --> 00:22:44,697 and hopefully find a guy who actually makes her happy 531 00:22:44,780 --> 00:22:46,073 and live a happy life. 532 00:22:48,784 --> 00:22:50,828 [artist] I got two years and four months clean and sober. 533 00:22:50,911 --> 00:22:52,913 [audience cheering] 534 00:22:52,997 --> 00:22:55,457 ♪ I don't wanna be friends ♪ 535 00:22:55,791 --> 00:22:58,294 ♪ I'd rather be enemies ♪ 536 00:22:58,794 --> 00:23:01,297 ♪ I'll push you in the deep end ♪ 537 00:23:01,797 --> 00:23:04,717 ♪ Make you weak, bring you to your knees ♪ 538 00:23:05,926 --> 00:23:07,386 ♪ I'm a queen on a castle... ♪ 539 00:23:07,469 --> 00:23:09,763 [Taylor] Ooh! Oh, my gosh, this is so weird. 540 00:23:11,015 --> 00:23:12,808 Ah, this is just so wild. 541 00:23:13,309 --> 00:23:15,311 It's been what, 12, 15 years for me? 542 00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:16,437 That's nuts. 543 00:23:16,896 --> 00:23:19,773 Where do you wanna go? Where other places do you wanna visit? 544 00:23:19,857 --> 00:23:22,526 Should we go where I met Brian for the first time? 545 00:23:23,110 --> 00:23:24,111 Yeah, we can. 546 00:23:24,612 --> 00:23:27,114 I kinda just wanna see if anything will pop up in my head. 547 00:23:27,197 --> 00:23:29,491 I did initially meet my biological father 548 00:23:29,575 --> 00:23:31,285 once when I was four at this restaurant. 549 00:23:31,368 --> 00:23:32,912 You know, that was the one time I had met him. 550 00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:35,289 I don't really know necessarily what I'm looking for here, 551 00:23:35,372 --> 00:23:38,834 but I think it's just, let's just go and see, you know, what happens. 552 00:23:38,918 --> 00:23:41,295 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 553 00:23:43,505 --> 00:23:44,798 Oh, wow. 554 00:23:46,133 --> 00:23:47,635 [Taylor] It just looks so different. 555 00:23:47,718 --> 00:23:49,094 [Liann] Yeah. [chuckles] 556 00:23:49,178 --> 00:23:51,639 I guess it's not the same blue building I thought it was gonna be. 557 00:23:53,390 --> 00:23:54,725 -[Taylor] Oh... -[Liann] It even looks different 558 00:23:54,808 --> 00:23:56,518 -from the outside. -[Taylor] It does, yeah. 559 00:23:57,436 --> 00:23:58,604 [Liann] Yeah. 560 00:23:58,687 --> 00:24:00,272 -How weird, huh? -[Taylor] Yeah. 561 00:24:01,106 --> 00:24:03,359 Does that bring back any memories for you or no? 562 00:24:03,442 --> 00:24:04,985 -What? That? -This-- This place. 563 00:24:05,069 --> 00:24:07,279 -Did you knew you were gonna see him? -No. 564 00:24:07,363 --> 00:24:08,530 -So you didn't know he worked here? -No. 565 00:24:08,614 --> 00:24:10,908 Oh, my gosh, so when you saw him, what did you say to him? 566 00:24:11,492 --> 00:24:14,828 I asked him if he wanted to meet you, and he said, "Yeah." 567 00:24:14,912 --> 00:24:16,580 So that's why I called you over. 568 00:24:16,664 --> 00:24:18,123 [Taylor] I remember like, "Hi, what's up?" 569 00:24:18,207 --> 00:24:19,583 Yeah, that was pretty much it. 570 00:24:19,667 --> 00:24:21,919 That's probably like a huge thing to meet your kid 571 00:24:22,002 --> 00:24:25,673 -that you haven't really talked to and-- -Was that weird for you? 572 00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:27,424 Yeah, it was different, yeah. 573 00:24:27,508 --> 00:24:30,302 -What did you think that day? -I don't know. 574 00:24:30,386 --> 00:24:35,224 Going back to the place that Taylor first met Brian, 575 00:24:35,307 --> 00:24:37,267 I see him meeting her. 576 00:24:37,351 --> 00:24:41,230 I have this beautiful little 4-year-old I wanna introduce 577 00:24:41,313 --> 00:24:44,441 and I would want him to feel the same feelings 578 00:24:44,525 --> 00:24:46,568 that I ha-- have for this person, 579 00:24:46,652 --> 00:24:47,903 but he-- he never did. 580 00:24:47,987 --> 00:24:50,698 You don't like to talk about him, like, at all. 581 00:24:50,781 --> 00:24:52,616 I just-- Yeah, I don't-- I don't-- I don't know. 582 00:24:52,700 --> 00:24:54,660 I don't know, do you, like, kinda get embarrassed? 583 00:24:55,494 --> 00:24:56,495 No. 584 00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:00,666 I just-- I don't know. 585 00:25:01,583 --> 00:25:05,087 It's just a long time ago. It wasn't in a good part of my life. 586 00:25:05,170 --> 00:25:08,007 It's not something, like, that I like to talk about. 587 00:25:08,090 --> 00:25:13,178 Taylor keeps asking questions about Brian 588 00:25:13,262 --> 00:25:15,931 and I feel a little bit uneasy. 589 00:25:16,015 --> 00:25:18,142 I don't want her to hurt anymore. 590 00:25:18,225 --> 00:25:21,311 I guess I kept things from her because I wanna protect her. 591 00:25:21,437 --> 00:25:23,313 But I'm curious about it, like... 592 00:25:24,064 --> 00:25:25,065 -I don't know. -I know, 593 00:25:25,149 --> 00:25:26,942 but maybe I'm not ready for that. 594 00:25:27,359 --> 00:25:30,195 I-- I would hope that you would respect that. 595 00:25:32,948 --> 00:25:35,242 Yeah, like just respect whenever you're ready to talk about it 596 00:25:35,325 --> 00:25:38,245 -or if you ever will be or-- -If I-- I know. I might not ever be. 597 00:25:38,328 --> 00:25:40,706 The fact that he's like kicked you in front of people is very... 598 00:25:41,123 --> 00:25:43,709 I've gotten pulled-- Yeah, there's just a lot of stuff like-- 599 00:25:43,792 --> 00:25:45,127 [Taylor] Concerning and-- 600 00:25:45,210 --> 00:25:46,795 I just don't wanna talk about it. 601 00:25:47,671 --> 00:25:51,050 [sniffs] I think I need to take a walk. [sniffs] 602 00:25:51,633 --> 00:25:53,844 It is frustrating to have my mom say 603 00:25:53,927 --> 00:25:56,180 she might not ever be able to open up to me, 604 00:25:56,263 --> 00:25:58,932 but I do think it's healthy to do it. 605 00:25:59,016 --> 00:26:00,809 And so, that's why I'm encouraging her to 606 00:26:00,893 --> 00:26:02,728 'cause I just want her to feel heard as well, that's all. 607 00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:05,773 [♪ tense music playing] 608 00:26:05,856 --> 00:26:08,442 [Liann sniffing] 609 00:26:11,904 --> 00:26:13,238 [♪ upbeat music playing] 610 00:26:13,322 --> 00:26:15,282 ♪ One, two, three, all eyes on me ♪ 611 00:26:15,365 --> 00:26:16,867 ♪ All eyes on me, all eyes on me ♪ 612 00:26:16,950 --> 00:26:19,578 ♪ When I walk in a room like what you see? ♪ 613 00:26:19,661 --> 00:26:21,163 ♪ Like what you see? ♪ 614 00:26:21,246 --> 00:26:23,207 ♪ Na-ah, make it look easy ♪ 615 00:26:23,290 --> 00:26:24,875 ♪ Make it look easy ♪ 616 00:26:24,958 --> 00:26:26,585 ♪ One, two, three, all eyes on me ♪ 617 00:26:26,668 --> 00:26:27,669 ♪ All eyes on me ♪ 618 00:26:28,587 --> 00:26:30,130 [line ringing] 619 00:26:30,631 --> 00:26:32,341 -[Mikayla] Hello. -Hello! 620 00:26:32,424 --> 00:26:34,218 [Mikayla] Jen, how are you? 621 00:26:34,301 --> 00:26:35,969 I'm so good. How are you? 622 00:26:36,053 --> 00:26:37,763 [Mikayla] Good. How's Dancing with the Stars? 623 00:26:37,846 --> 00:26:39,264 [Jen] I'm not gonna lie, I think this is-- 624 00:26:39,348 --> 00:26:42,476 this has been one of the hardest things we've ever done. I mean... 625 00:26:42,559 --> 00:26:43,602 -[Mikayla] Really? -Yeah. 626 00:26:43,685 --> 00:26:45,479 I mean, think about it, 627 00:26:45,562 --> 00:26:49,483 having to, you know, do late-night feedings, breastfeeding 628 00:26:49,566 --> 00:26:52,569 while I'm gone dancing five to eight hours a day... 629 00:26:52,653 --> 00:26:56,365 Dancing with the Stars has been one of the greatest experience for me. 630 00:26:56,448 --> 00:26:57,950 It's also been one of the hardest. 631 00:26:58,033 --> 00:27:00,452 Oh, my gosh, I'm having a mental breakdown. 632 00:27:00,536 --> 00:27:03,163 You know, there's been a lot of times where I have felt inadequate. 633 00:27:03,247 --> 00:27:04,540 Eight. 634 00:27:04,623 --> 00:27:05,916 Ten. 635 00:27:05,999 --> 00:27:07,000 Eight. 636 00:27:07,084 --> 00:27:09,753 [announcer] All right, 32 out of 40 for Jen and Jan. 637 00:27:09,837 --> 00:27:10,838 Ten! 638 00:27:10,921 --> 00:27:13,924 [announcer] First tens of the season, how are you feeling, Whitney? 639 00:27:14,007 --> 00:27:15,717 I'm out of breath, I didn't know what to say! 640 00:27:15,801 --> 00:27:18,929 [Jen] And I do have to remember that I just had a baby. 641 00:27:20,764 --> 00:27:23,308 But I can't help but, you know, be hard on myself 642 00:27:23,392 --> 00:27:24,852 when this is everything to me. 643 00:27:25,269 --> 00:27:28,272 [Mikayla] How do you feel like yours and Whit-- Whitney's relationship has been 644 00:27:28,355 --> 00:27:29,857 doing Dancing with the Stars together? 645 00:27:29,940 --> 00:27:32,901 [exhales] You know what? It's been-- It's been cordial. 646 00:27:32,985 --> 00:27:36,905 I think the thing that I'm struggling with the most is, 647 00:27:36,989 --> 00:27:41,493 you know, how, like, things were left at The Reunion. 648 00:27:41,577 --> 00:27:42,578 -Um... -[Mikayla] Yeah. 649 00:27:42,661 --> 00:27:45,247 I do feel like Whitney's still in Demi's corner. 650 00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:49,626 She continues to call me a liar when she hasn't taken accountability. 651 00:27:49,710 --> 00:27:52,087 I think you both played a role in where you are today. 652 00:27:52,171 --> 00:27:53,755 [Jen] Okay, I was defending myself. 653 00:27:53,839 --> 00:27:57,342 I never went out of my way intentionally to hurt her. 654 00:27:57,509 --> 00:28:00,888 It just feels like we're kind of putting on a fake... 655 00:28:00,971 --> 00:28:03,223 -[Mikayla] Yeah. -...front for... 656 00:28:04,141 --> 00:28:08,520 for the sake of not having drama and trying to focus on our journey. 657 00:28:08,604 --> 00:28:10,689 So Jen tells me that there's a little bit of tension 658 00:28:10,772 --> 00:28:12,024 between her and Whitney. 659 00:28:12,107 --> 00:28:13,692 MomTok is at a good place right now 660 00:28:13,775 --> 00:28:16,778 and I don't want it to affect the state of MomTok. 661 00:28:16,862 --> 00:28:19,448 I just hope that they can sit down, have a conversation, 662 00:28:19,531 --> 00:28:21,074 and work out whatever issues they're having, 663 00:28:21,158 --> 00:28:22,409 just like Whitney and I did. 664 00:28:22,826 --> 00:28:25,829 I miss you, and, honestly, I'm excited to... 665 00:28:26,622 --> 00:28:29,499 -reunite once all of this craziness is-- is-- is-- 666 00:28:29,583 --> 00:28:31,501 [Mikayla] I know. We need a good girls' night. 667 00:28:31,585 --> 00:28:33,295 -Okay, well, I love you. -[Jen] Okay, love you. 668 00:28:33,378 --> 00:28:36,381 [♪ upbeat music playing] 669 00:28:39,259 --> 00:28:40,260 [Mason] You hungry? 670 00:28:40,344 --> 00:28:42,012 [Layla] S-- Starving, yeah. 671 00:28:42,095 --> 00:28:44,348 -Can I get a glass of Pinot Grigio? -Of course, yeah. 672 00:28:44,431 --> 00:28:46,099 -Can we have two of those, please? -Yeah, you got it. 673 00:28:46,183 --> 00:28:47,351 -Thank you. -Thank you. 674 00:28:49,311 --> 00:28:51,647 I feel like the meeting overall went good. They had me take some digitals 675 00:28:51,730 --> 00:28:53,815 and they filmed me doing my walk and stuff. 676 00:28:53,899 --> 00:28:55,317 If they were to sign me, 677 00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:59,571 I would have to be here for three months to, like, get things started. 678 00:28:59,905 --> 00:29:02,115 Taking digitals every day, doing shoots every day. 679 00:29:02,199 --> 00:29:04,910 I feel like I could make it work but it's still kind of scary 680 00:29:05,410 --> 00:29:08,664 just 'cause, what if I have like something important 681 00:29:08,747 --> 00:29:10,666 and then also still like MomTok. 682 00:29:10,749 --> 00:29:12,709 At the end of the day, like, I still love all those girls 683 00:29:12,793 --> 00:29:13,919 and I wanna be able to show up for them 684 00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:15,420 and all of the things that they have going on. 685 00:29:15,504 --> 00:29:17,673 I feel like that'd be kind of hard on our relationship too. 686 00:29:17,756 --> 00:29:21,551 So, it's definitely something I need to, like, think about long-term. 687 00:29:21,635 --> 00:29:24,012 -But New York is my dream for modeling. -[Mason] Yeah. 688 00:29:24,096 --> 00:29:25,097 'Cause I wanna do high fashion, 689 00:29:25,180 --> 00:29:28,725 and I wanna do, like, the bigger names and things like that, so. 690 00:29:28,809 --> 00:29:30,310 I don't wanna get my hopes up. 691 00:29:30,394 --> 00:29:31,812 Definitely, there's a lot of anxiety around it. 692 00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:35,857 ♪♪ 693 00:29:35,941 --> 00:29:38,235 Would you, like, come and visit me as much as you could? 694 00:29:39,736 --> 00:29:40,737 Yeah. 695 00:29:43,657 --> 00:29:46,743 Or would you have to stay behind to be a stepdaddy? 696 00:29:47,244 --> 00:29:48,245 Just kidding. 697 00:29:53,834 --> 00:29:55,085 I don't know if I'm ready for that. 698 00:29:55,836 --> 00:29:57,671 Like, all jokes aside, I don't know. 699 00:29:57,754 --> 00:29:59,840 I think the thought of having to move away for three months 700 00:29:59,923 --> 00:30:01,633 when I'm just at the start of my relationship with Mason 701 00:30:01,717 --> 00:30:02,884 is really hard. 702 00:30:02,968 --> 00:30:04,219 And I feel like right now, we're in the state 703 00:30:04,303 --> 00:30:06,096 that we're still trying to get to know each other 704 00:30:06,179 --> 00:30:07,597 and kind of in the honeymoon phase. 705 00:30:07,681 --> 00:30:10,225 However, I definitely think I would need Mason's support 706 00:30:10,309 --> 00:30:11,310 to make this work, 707 00:30:11,393 --> 00:30:13,145 and this makes me feel like I need to talk to him 708 00:30:13,228 --> 00:30:15,147 about him and the kids' relationship. 709 00:30:15,230 --> 00:30:17,024 Like, when my boys get crazy sometimes, 710 00:30:17,107 --> 00:30:20,235 I feel like your patience is, like, smaller with them sometimes. 711 00:30:20,319 --> 00:30:21,528 -Really? -Yeah. 712 00:30:22,029 --> 00:30:23,697 I try not to overstep my bounds, 713 00:30:23,780 --> 00:30:25,365 'cause, like, I know they're not mine, they're yours, 714 00:30:25,449 --> 00:30:27,617 -like, I love being around them but like-- -[Layla] No, and I don't want-- 715 00:30:27,701 --> 00:30:30,495 I, like, don't wanna be that one that's cracking the whip either 716 00:30:30,579 --> 00:30:32,622 if you're not comfortable with it because I'm like, they're not mine, 717 00:30:32,706 --> 00:30:33,749 -I mean, it's your call. -No, frankly, 718 00:30:33,832 --> 00:30:36,001 if you were to discipline them, I would tell you no. 719 00:30:36,084 --> 00:30:40,505 I just feel like, sometimes, around you, they just get away with like murder. 720 00:30:40,589 --> 00:30:41,590 When I see them like disres-- 721 00:30:41,673 --> 00:30:43,592 not disrespecting you, but they throw shit at you sometimes 722 00:30:43,675 --> 00:30:45,177 -and I'm like, hey-- -They're 4 years old. 723 00:30:45,260 --> 00:30:49,139 They're 4 years old. I know. But I also will say, "Don't do that." 724 00:30:49,222 --> 00:30:51,433 You know, they hit you, and I'm just like, "Hey, we don't hit Mom." 725 00:30:52,100 --> 00:30:53,560 And that's when I voice that from a place 726 00:30:53,643 --> 00:30:57,064 that comes with a little bit of, like, I'm a little protective of you. 727 00:30:57,147 --> 00:31:00,025 I'm not saying they're, like, bad at all, they're kids. 728 00:31:00,108 --> 00:31:01,318 ♪♪ 729 00:31:01,401 --> 00:31:04,696 I think Mason is completely overstepping right now with what he's saying. 730 00:31:04,780 --> 00:31:06,323 You're not a parent, you're an uncle, 731 00:31:06,406 --> 00:31:08,575 and you get to say bye when the kids start being annoying. 732 00:31:08,658 --> 00:31:11,912 So, when you actually are a parent and you have to do it full-time 24/7, 733 00:31:11,995 --> 00:31:13,246 then you can talk on it. 734 00:31:13,663 --> 00:31:15,707 I'm their Mom, I don't want you to be their... 735 00:31:15,791 --> 00:31:17,459 -[Mason] I know. I know. -...stepdad, their dad, anything. 736 00:31:17,542 --> 00:31:20,087 Like that's not something that I would want you to even take on 737 00:31:20,170 --> 00:31:24,508 until we were far, far, far, far down the line. 738 00:31:24,591 --> 00:31:27,219 ♪♪ 739 00:31:31,598 --> 00:31:34,267 ♪♪ 740 00:31:36,103 --> 00:31:39,231 I am never gonna be the parent that like screams at my kids and like-- 741 00:31:39,314 --> 00:31:41,066 [Mason] I'm not saying screaming's the answer. 742 00:31:41,149 --> 00:31:42,442 -Yeah. -[Mason] I'm just saying, sometimes, 743 00:31:42,526 --> 00:31:44,694 -I feel like you ask them to do things... -Yeah, they-- 744 00:31:44,778 --> 00:31:47,030 ...and they're always gonna say no if you ask them to go to bed. 745 00:31:47,114 --> 00:31:49,074 You feel like I don't discipline them that well. 746 00:31:49,157 --> 00:31:53,870 I think already I carry a lot of guilt around the fact that like I couldn't-- 747 00:31:53,954 --> 00:31:55,247 Why am I, like, emotional? 748 00:31:55,831 --> 00:31:57,707 -[Mason] 'Cause they're your kids. -Like, I couldn't keep my family 749 00:31:57,791 --> 00:31:59,501 together for them and like-- 750 00:32:00,669 --> 00:32:02,629 I don't know, I feel like coming from a broken household, 751 00:32:02,712 --> 00:32:05,382 I thought that I would give my kids the opposite one day. 752 00:32:05,882 --> 00:32:08,718 So, I feel like I'm almost trying to make up for the fact that like... 753 00:32:09,511 --> 00:32:11,763 I couldn't give them what, like, they deserve. 754 00:32:11,847 --> 00:32:13,723 I just carry a lot of guilt, so I feel like I just need 755 00:32:13,807 --> 00:32:16,852 to give them the best life that I can. 756 00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:18,687 I think, growing up in a broken household 757 00:32:18,770 --> 00:32:22,357 with parents that don't coexist very well and fight all the time, 758 00:32:22,441 --> 00:32:26,069 and can't be in the same room without bickering and glaring at each other, 759 00:32:26,153 --> 00:32:29,364 I know the impact that that can have on you as a little kid. 760 00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:32,117 And now kind of having a co-parenting relationship with my ex 761 00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:34,077 where we don't really get along that well, 762 00:32:34,161 --> 00:32:37,122 I'm very, very, very particular about who I bring around my kids 763 00:32:37,205 --> 00:32:41,126 and the negative energy that they possibly could bring into our family unit. 764 00:32:51,887 --> 00:32:54,264 Why am I getting emotional? They're just like little innocent babies, 765 00:32:54,347 --> 00:32:57,142 like, they just want to be like loved and like-- 766 00:32:57,225 --> 00:32:58,393 And I don't want my kids-- 767 00:32:58,477 --> 00:33:00,353 I don't wanna feel like my kids are a fucking burden, 768 00:33:00,437 --> 00:33:02,606 and I feel like that's what sometimes, like, feels like sometimes. 769 00:33:04,065 --> 00:33:06,818 I just will like look at you sometimes and you just seem like so pissed off. 770 00:33:06,902 --> 00:33:11,406 I'm like they're three fucking years old. Like, they're babies, you know? So... 771 00:33:26,755 --> 00:33:28,965 -[chuckling] Are you crying? -I don't know. I'm just like-- 772 00:33:35,764 --> 00:33:36,848 -Can I kiss you? -Yeah. 773 00:33:36,932 --> 00:33:37,933 You're good. 774 00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:40,977 -Thanks for being understanding. -Yeah. 775 00:33:41,061 --> 00:33:42,854 And understanding where I'm coming from. 776 00:33:42,938 --> 00:33:47,734 Me and my relationship with men is definitely very hard. 777 00:33:47,817 --> 00:33:49,319 I grew up around verbal abuse, 778 00:33:49,402 --> 00:33:52,072 so it's really hard and challenging for me to let down my barriers. 779 00:33:52,155 --> 00:33:54,282 I'm just really lucky to be able to have Mason's support 780 00:33:54,366 --> 00:33:56,034 as I continue to pursue my dreams. 781 00:33:56,117 --> 00:33:59,829 Just having someone in your corner that's rooting for you and cheering you on 782 00:33:59,913 --> 00:34:02,207 is just a really nice feeling and I'm just super grateful for him. 783 00:34:05,627 --> 00:34:07,087 -It's fine. I love you. -All right. 784 00:34:09,881 --> 00:34:11,800 It's the wine. It's making me emotional. 785 00:34:17,222 --> 00:34:19,015 It's not-- [chuckles] 786 00:34:19,766 --> 00:34:22,978 ♪♪ 787 00:34:36,366 --> 00:34:37,367 I know, right? 788 00:34:38,034 --> 00:34:39,953 "It's Dakota! What the fuck?" 789 00:34:40,036 --> 00:34:41,037 [both laughing] 790 00:34:41,121 --> 00:34:42,622 [Jordan] It's like, who let you outta your cage? 791 00:34:42,706 --> 00:34:43,707 [Dakota] Yeah. 792 00:34:43,790 --> 00:34:46,751 Dakota and I are back today for day two of the Red West Music Festival. 793 00:34:46,835 --> 00:34:50,755 The reason that we're here solo is the girls are at a photo shoot today 794 00:34:50,839 --> 00:34:52,173 and were unable to make it. 795 00:34:52,507 --> 00:34:55,677 -So is, uh, Shinia coming today or what? -[Dakota] Yeah. 796 00:34:57,637 --> 00:34:58,805 Am I worried about it? 797 00:34:58,888 --> 00:35:00,765 Yeah, bro, I'm worried about it. Are you kidding me? 798 00:35:00,849 --> 00:35:03,310 -Why do you think I've been freaking out? -[Jordan] [chuckling] Oh. 799 00:35:04,144 --> 00:35:05,645 [Dakota] Hey, where's the VIP at? 800 00:35:06,271 --> 00:35:09,649 Shinia's coming today, and all of MomTok knows now as well. 801 00:35:09,733 --> 00:35:13,361 So, I feel like I just need to have a conversation with her 802 00:35:13,445 --> 00:35:16,114 and maybe try to figure that out. 803 00:35:16,197 --> 00:35:19,117 ♪♪ 804 00:35:19,200 --> 00:35:21,411 [voice cracking] Howdy, everyone. Hi. 805 00:35:21,494 --> 00:35:23,330 -Oh, my gosh. -Hi. 806 00:35:23,997 --> 00:35:25,248 How are you? 807 00:35:25,832 --> 00:35:26,916 Are you sick? 808 00:35:27,375 --> 00:35:28,376 [voice cracking] How did you know? 809 00:35:28,460 --> 00:35:29,586 [chuckling] I dunno-- 810 00:35:29,669 --> 00:35:30,670 [Miranda] I'm not feeling my best. 811 00:35:30,754 --> 00:35:32,505 -Both of my kids are sick. -Oh, really? 812 00:35:32,589 --> 00:35:33,965 -[Miranda] I got-- I came down with it. -Yeah. 813 00:35:34,049 --> 00:35:35,717 -But I could be feeling worse. -Right. 814 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:41,514 I am attending Red West with two of my closest friends, Litia and Shinia. 815 00:35:41,598 --> 00:35:44,559 I am sick as a dog. The weather is horrible. 816 00:35:44,643 --> 00:35:47,979 We decided to go to the VIP lounge and just kind of hang out. 817 00:35:48,063 --> 00:35:51,983 Turns out, the storm followed us inside, 818 00:35:52,067 --> 00:35:53,902 that storm being Dakota [chuckles]. 819 00:35:53,985 --> 00:35:56,946 [wind whooshing, thunder rumbling] 820 00:35:58,573 --> 00:36:00,116 There's a "shelter in place." 821 00:36:00,617 --> 00:36:02,035 -Oh, out here? -[Jordan] Yeah. 822 00:36:02,118 --> 00:36:03,119 For the concerts? 823 00:36:03,203 --> 00:36:04,954 I mean, I guess like a storm or something. 824 00:36:05,038 --> 00:36:06,956 [rain splashing] 825 00:36:07,040 --> 00:36:08,166 -Oh, wow! -Whoa! 826 00:36:09,876 --> 00:36:11,336 Dude, that's crazy. 827 00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:13,630 [thunder rumbling] 828 00:36:13,713 --> 00:36:15,674 [Jordan] So, now that everyone knows, 829 00:36:15,757 --> 00:36:18,426 like, what are your thoughts on the whole fucking Shinia thing? 830 00:36:18,510 --> 00:36:19,761 I think it's bullshit. 831 00:36:19,844 --> 00:36:20,929 [Jordan] You think it's bullshit? 832 00:36:21,012 --> 00:36:23,973 [Miranda] Well, I told her this is a horrible idea. 833 00:36:24,057 --> 00:36:26,726 Yeah. Taylor, like, is gonna go be The Bachelorette 834 00:36:26,810 --> 00:36:28,395 and, like, clearly they're still toxic. 835 00:36:28,478 --> 00:36:30,021 It just feels very calculated. 836 00:36:30,105 --> 00:36:34,109 It feels like you're intentionally picking someone that's in the group 837 00:36:34,192 --> 00:36:36,111 to, like, keep like this, like-- 838 00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:37,487 -[Jordan] Perpetuate like this-- -Yes! 839 00:36:37,570 --> 00:36:39,280 He wanted people to know, 840 00:36:39,364 --> 00:36:40,657 -that's what I'm saying. -Yeah, yeah. 841 00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:42,158 He wants Taylor to know to piss her off 842 00:36:42,242 --> 00:36:44,202 'cause she's about to go be The Bachelorette, 843 00:36:44,285 --> 00:36:46,746 and it's-- it's calculated and it's gross. 844 00:36:47,414 --> 00:36:48,665 [Jordan] He is an addict through and through. 845 00:36:48,748 --> 00:36:50,083 You know who else is an addict? Taylor. 846 00:36:50,166 --> 00:36:54,129 Taylor's an addict to chaos and an addict to Dakota, period. 847 00:36:54,546 --> 00:36:57,048 [sighs] It's so unfortunate. [groans] 848 00:36:57,132 --> 00:36:58,591 Well... cheers. 849 00:36:59,509 --> 00:37:04,723 After I found out about Shinia and Dakota, I made it very clear this will end badly. 850 00:37:04,806 --> 00:37:10,520 I thought that they would make it a one-time thing, and it would be done. 851 00:37:10,937 --> 00:37:12,439 Obviously, that didn't happen. 852 00:37:13,022 --> 00:37:16,025 I'm very much a person where I can just be in the moment with things 853 00:37:16,109 --> 00:37:18,111 and I feel like that's kind of what was happening. 854 00:37:18,194 --> 00:37:21,406 -[Jordan groans] -Oh, I'm just gonna let this ride and see. 855 00:37:21,489 --> 00:37:25,076 So, Dakota, when were you guys, uh, gonna tell me about your little escapades? 856 00:37:25,160 --> 00:37:27,245 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 857 00:37:27,328 --> 00:37:28,329 What? 858 00:37:30,123 --> 00:37:33,334 I've heard... brief talks. 859 00:37:34,002 --> 00:37:36,212 I mean, I probably was never gonna tell you 860 00:37:36,296 --> 00:37:38,256 but I was hoping she would tell you. 861 00:37:38,339 --> 00:37:40,300 I just wish if you were gonna do this, you would've done a hell of a lot-- 862 00:37:40,383 --> 00:37:41,634 better job at hiding it. 863 00:37:43,011 --> 00:37:46,014 -Truthfully. -I mean, we tried not to, like-- 864 00:37:46,097 --> 00:37:48,099 I wasn't trying to like freaking be out in public, 865 00:37:48,183 --> 00:37:49,976 like, uh, with Shinia somewhere, like-- 866 00:37:50,059 --> 00:37:51,686 But you're telling him that you're seeing someone 867 00:37:51,770 --> 00:37:53,772 -that's in proximity to Taylor? -Well... 868 00:37:53,855 --> 00:37:56,274 You know she's gonna be detective mode immediately. 869 00:37:56,357 --> 00:37:58,985 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 870 00:37:59,068 --> 00:38:00,612 I'm praying for both of you. 871 00:38:00,695 --> 00:38:02,113 Anyway, I wish you both the best. 872 00:38:02,197 --> 00:38:05,116 -It's been actually so nice knowing you. -[Dakota] Fuck! 873 00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:07,786 -I will-- I will write your eulogy. -[Jordan] Hey, hold on. 874 00:38:07,869 --> 00:38:09,704 Nah, I think you guys should do what you guys wanna do 875 00:38:09,788 --> 00:38:11,831 as two consenting adults. 876 00:38:11,915 --> 00:38:14,375 -I really feel like you shouldn't. -Just realize, like, 877 00:38:14,459 --> 00:38:16,294 there may be repercussions, that's all. 878 00:38:17,045 --> 00:38:18,755 -Mm-hmm. Yeah. -[Litia] It's gonna be okay. 879 00:38:18,838 --> 00:38:21,090 -It might be a little bumpy. -I have to pee. 880 00:38:21,174 --> 00:38:23,927 ♪♪ 881 00:38:24,010 --> 00:38:25,011 Well... 882 00:38:28,181 --> 00:38:30,558 Dakota wanted this to come out immediately. 883 00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:31,893 You can't convince me otherwise. 884 00:38:31,976 --> 00:38:34,771 He tries to make it sound like, "Oh, it has to be so hush." 885 00:38:34,854 --> 00:38:36,815 No. Absolutely not. 886 00:38:36,898 --> 00:38:38,024 Absolutely not. 887 00:38:38,107 --> 00:38:40,777 It's all manipulation. It's all a ploy. It's all game. 888 00:38:40,860 --> 00:38:43,196 It feels so wrong what I'm doing, of course, 889 00:38:43,279 --> 00:38:45,532 but, like, it's working. 890 00:38:53,206 --> 00:38:56,125 Love bombing you is gross though if you don't like the guy. 891 00:38:56,626 --> 00:38:59,003 That's why I'm saying, it's like every guy does that though. 892 00:38:59,087 --> 00:39:01,089 Guess what, it's still gross if you like him. 893 00:39:01,172 --> 00:39:03,508 Yeah, Miranda was pretty hot and heavy about it and I-- 894 00:39:03,591 --> 00:39:05,385 Yeah, bro, she was way hot and heavy about it. 895 00:39:05,468 --> 00:39:08,763 Dakota wanted everyone to know about this. 896 00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:10,890 He doesn't care about you like that. 897 00:39:10,974 --> 00:39:12,517 He's not looking out for your best interest. 898 00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:13,601 You need to do that. 899 00:39:13,685 --> 00:39:16,062 [Miranda] Does he maybe have, like, a little bit of an interest in you? 900 00:39:16,145 --> 00:39:18,815 For sure, but the thing is, is like, he does not know you. 901 00:39:18,898 --> 00:39:23,278 I know you can do a hell of a lot better than fucking Dakota. 902 00:39:23,361 --> 00:39:24,821 -I know. You're so right. -Okay? 903 00:39:24,904 --> 00:39:26,155 -Actually, you're so right. -Okay. 904 00:39:26,239 --> 00:39:29,200 Like, chill out. Miranda, you know exactly how fucking Taylor is. 905 00:39:29,284 --> 00:39:31,619 You've seen it literally happen a million times. 906 00:39:31,703 --> 00:39:34,998 I am always, somehow, the one that is always in the wrong. 907 00:39:35,081 --> 00:39:37,542 Taylor thought she would get to see Dakota's potential. 908 00:39:37,625 --> 00:39:39,711 Guess what? She had-- He had a baby with her. 909 00:39:39,794 --> 00:39:41,838 And look at him! He never lived up to it! 910 00:39:41,921 --> 00:39:43,923 He can prove everyone wrong if he wants to, 911 00:39:44,007 --> 00:39:45,300 that's up to him, that's not your problem. 912 00:39:45,383 --> 00:39:46,634 I have a great idea. 913 00:39:46,718 --> 00:39:47,802 Let's wrap that up 914 00:39:48,845 --> 00:39:49,846 and move on. 915 00:39:50,972 --> 00:39:56,603 Being friends with Taylor, you know, being longstanding friends with Shinia, 916 00:39:56,686 --> 00:39:57,687 it puts me in the middle. 917 00:39:57,770 --> 00:39:59,981 And obviously, she knew everything 918 00:40:00,064 --> 00:40:02,483 that went on in the past between Taylor and I, 919 00:40:02,567 --> 00:40:04,986 and that a man getting between our friendship, 920 00:40:05,069 --> 00:40:07,488 like, that's a sensitive thing for the both of us 921 00:40:08,114 --> 00:40:12,785 and subjecting us both to that is just disappointing. 922 00:40:13,286 --> 00:40:14,746 [thunder rumbling] 923 00:40:14,829 --> 00:40:17,165 -[Shinia] Can we talk for a second? -[Dakota] Yeah, are you okay? 924 00:40:17,248 --> 00:40:18,333 [Shinia] I dunno. 925 00:40:18,416 --> 00:40:19,876 [Dakota] I just, genuinely-- 926 00:40:20,501 --> 00:40:22,795 I just wanna make this very clear to you. 927 00:40:22,879 --> 00:40:27,884 I have been enjoying hanging out with you, and I mean that. 928 00:40:27,967 --> 00:40:31,763 I just feel like Taylor kinda still can get to me. 929 00:40:32,263 --> 00:40:33,264 It's just so intense. 930 00:40:33,348 --> 00:40:36,392 Like, I just wish I didn't have to always deal with that. 931 00:40:36,476 --> 00:40:38,937 -But-- But-- -So why would you bring me into this shit? 932 00:40:39,020 --> 00:40:40,438 -That's psycho. -I know. 933 00:40:41,481 --> 00:40:43,775 I don't know if you should be dating yet. 934 00:40:43,858 --> 00:40:45,234 [Dakota] I-- I-- I want to. 935 00:40:45,318 --> 00:40:50,865 Like, I-- I think my issue is I am just in a shitty position in general. 936 00:40:50,949 --> 00:40:52,659 Like, I wanna, like, move on. 937 00:40:52,742 --> 00:40:55,286 I wanna try to move forward with everything, okay? 938 00:40:55,370 --> 00:40:56,788 Like, I wanna make that very clear 939 00:40:56,871 --> 00:41:01,793 because I don't want, you know, Miranda or anybody to convince you otherwise. 940 00:41:01,876 --> 00:41:03,711 Everyone-- That's what everyone's saying. 941 00:41:03,795 --> 00:41:06,631 I know, I mean, I'm-- Look, I'm so sorry. I really am. 942 00:41:06,714 --> 00:41:09,133 I'm so sorry, Shinia. 943 00:41:14,722 --> 00:41:16,265 [Dakota] Yeah, same. 944 00:41:16,349 --> 00:41:18,184 [thunder rumbling] 945 00:41:18,267 --> 00:41:21,270 [♪ gentle music playing] 946 00:41:25,274 --> 00:41:27,527 [Taylor] My mom is taking a walk to clear her head 947 00:41:27,610 --> 00:41:29,612 and she hasn't been answering her phone 948 00:41:29,696 --> 00:41:33,825 so I drive towards our childhood home to see if that's where she was 949 00:41:33,908 --> 00:41:36,703 'cause I had a feeling that she would, you know, gravitate towards that. 950 00:41:36,786 --> 00:41:39,789 [♪ gentle music playing] 951 00:41:41,249 --> 00:41:44,043 -Found you. You doing okay? -[Liann] Yeah. 952 00:41:45,461 --> 00:41:48,047 What, are you trying to go back to your old house? 953 00:41:48,131 --> 00:41:49,382 Yeah, wanted to go by there. 954 00:41:49,465 --> 00:41:50,466 -Yeah? -Yeah. 955 00:41:50,550 --> 00:41:52,093 Okay. Well, we can go over there. 956 00:41:52,176 --> 00:41:55,263 I'm actually-- I wanna go see it, too. 957 00:41:56,347 --> 00:41:57,640 -Are you okay? -Yeah. 958 00:41:58,224 --> 00:41:59,642 -It's just hard? -Yeah. 959 00:41:59,726 --> 00:42:01,102 I know. I'm sorry. 960 00:42:02,020 --> 00:42:04,605 This just brings back so many memories, it's wild. 961 00:42:04,689 --> 00:42:05,690 I know. 962 00:42:05,773 --> 00:42:06,816 Oh, my gosh. 963 00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:10,111 [Liann] That's-- Oh, look at these trees your dad planted, 964 00:42:10,194 --> 00:42:11,863 -they're huge! -Oh, my gosh. 965 00:42:11,946 --> 00:42:14,449 -This is so weird. -[Liann] Oh, my God, it's not. 966 00:42:16,993 --> 00:42:18,327 Do you know who lives here? 967 00:42:18,411 --> 00:42:19,787 I don't remember their names. 968 00:42:19,871 --> 00:42:22,165 I don't know if it's the same people that I sold it to. 969 00:42:22,248 --> 00:42:23,249 We're about to find out. 970 00:42:23,750 --> 00:42:25,626 They took out the trees right here, too. 971 00:42:28,171 --> 00:42:30,673 Okay, this is probably-- They're gonna be so creeped out by this. 972 00:42:30,757 --> 00:42:32,633 [Liann] Oh, my gosh, yeah, this is so weird. 973 00:42:33,551 --> 00:42:35,553 -[man] Ladies, can I help you? -[Liann/Taylor] Hi! 974 00:42:35,636 --> 00:42:38,014 [Taylor] Yes, um, okay, so this used to be our old house 975 00:42:38,097 --> 00:42:39,265 -where I grew up in... -Wow. 976 00:42:39,348 --> 00:42:40,850 ...um, till I was 15, 16. 977 00:42:40,933 --> 00:42:43,561 -Yes, I'm Liann. I don't know if you-- -Liann? Rick Muldoon. 978 00:42:43,644 --> 00:42:47,482 -I... think we met, but I don't remember. -Yes, 'cause-- Was it like 15 years ago? 979 00:42:47,565 --> 00:42:49,442 -Sixteen. -Sixt-- Has it been that long? 980 00:42:49,525 --> 00:42:51,152 [Taylor] I know. It's wild. Can we do a lap around the house? 981 00:42:51,235 --> 00:42:52,528 -Like outside-- -[Rick] Whatever you wanna do. 982 00:42:52,612 --> 00:42:55,198 -Okay. Thank you. I appreciate you. -Thank you so much. 983 00:42:55,281 --> 00:42:56,282 Cute. 984 00:42:57,366 --> 00:42:58,785 [Taylor] This is so crazy. 985 00:42:59,243 --> 00:43:00,870 Is it so sad for you? 986 00:43:00,953 --> 00:43:02,163 Sentimental, huh? 987 00:43:02,246 --> 00:43:05,708 No, y-- your dad just, like, planted every tree in here. 988 00:43:05,792 --> 00:43:07,210 Remember you used to take pictures 989 00:43:07,293 --> 00:43:08,711 -on this, like, rock. -[Taylor] This rock. 990 00:43:08,795 --> 00:43:11,923 And dad would put helmets on us and he would be like, "Hey, ready?" 991 00:43:12,006 --> 00:43:14,383 -And he'd throw balls at our heads. -Yeah. 992 00:43:14,467 --> 00:43:17,011 [Taylor] I had my last party here, and I got in so much trouble 993 00:43:17,095 --> 00:43:19,097 'cause I went over here in the trees and was kissing 994 00:43:19,180 --> 00:43:21,599 and Dad saw through the window. [laughs] 995 00:43:22,767 --> 00:43:23,768 [Liann] Good memories. 996 00:43:24,060 --> 00:43:25,561 Bad memories to good memories. 997 00:43:25,895 --> 00:43:28,481 I guess you're right, bad memories to good memories, huh? 998 00:43:29,357 --> 00:43:31,484 I think we came here more for trying to get answers of, 999 00:43:31,567 --> 00:43:34,570 do I have siblings out there? What is out there? We-- I-- I don't know. 1000 00:43:34,654 --> 00:43:36,739 But at the end of the day, I feel like I have-- I have you 1001 00:43:36,823 --> 00:43:40,952 and I have my dad, Jeremy, that's been here since day one, 1002 00:43:41,035 --> 00:43:43,996 and I've never called him anything other than Dad 1003 00:43:44,080 --> 00:43:45,915 because he is my dad, you know, he raised me. 1004 00:43:47,375 --> 00:43:50,503 I'm just grateful that Jeremy stepped in the role of being my dad, 1005 00:43:50,586 --> 00:43:52,421 and I couldn't have gotten a better father. 1006 00:43:52,505 --> 00:43:54,841 You've been through a lot, a lot of trauma 1007 00:43:54,924 --> 00:43:57,009 and I don't wanna bring it up again, 'cause I know it's hard to hear, 1008 00:43:57,093 --> 00:43:59,303 but all the abuse, I don't know the extent of that 1009 00:43:59,387 --> 00:44:01,639 and that is horrible to hear, 1010 00:44:01,722 --> 00:44:04,600 and especially when he said that today, I, you know, I got sick for you. 1011 00:44:05,518 --> 00:44:06,602 And I feel really bad, 1012 00:44:06,686 --> 00:44:08,980 and that's, um, and that's on me for not, like, 1013 00:44:09,063 --> 00:44:11,023 you know, considering your feelings on that, so. 1014 00:44:11,107 --> 00:44:13,860 You share whatever you want continuing moving forward. 1015 00:44:13,943 --> 00:44:15,278 I'm not gonna pry anymore. 1016 00:44:15,361 --> 00:44:16,654 Well, I owe you that. 1017 00:44:16,737 --> 00:44:20,658 Like, I understand where your curiosity and where you-- you wanna know, 1018 00:44:20,741 --> 00:44:23,077 you know, who your biological dad is. 1019 00:44:23,161 --> 00:44:25,204 Like, anybody would wanna know that, right? 1020 00:44:25,288 --> 00:44:27,456 -[Taylor] Mm-hmm. -[Liann] It's just, you know, 1021 00:44:27,540 --> 00:44:30,126 [voice breaking] I would've loved to have-- have had that, like, family 1022 00:44:30,209 --> 00:44:32,003 but it just wasn't gonna happen. 1023 00:44:32,086 --> 00:44:34,755 Like, I always just look out for your best interest. 1024 00:44:34,839 --> 00:44:36,591 I always wanted you to be happy. 1025 00:44:36,674 --> 00:44:39,594 ♪♪ 1026 00:44:39,677 --> 00:44:41,846 I cho-- I chose not to go with him 1027 00:44:43,890 --> 00:44:45,057 because of you. 1028 00:44:45,141 --> 00:44:48,186 We just would've went down the wrong road, all three of us, 1029 00:44:48,269 --> 00:44:49,854 and it just wouldn't have been healthy. 1030 00:44:49,937 --> 00:44:51,898 -You made the right decision. Yeah. -I did. 1031 00:44:51,981 --> 00:44:55,276 [Taylor] I think this trip overall helped my mother and I in our relationship. 1032 00:44:55,359 --> 00:44:58,154 Definitely gives me some insight 1033 00:44:58,237 --> 00:45:01,115 on different patterns I would like to break in my family. 1034 00:45:01,199 --> 00:45:02,408 There's parallels with Dakota. 1035 00:45:02,491 --> 00:45:04,327 The toxicity in the relationship, 1036 00:45:04,410 --> 00:45:06,329 the recovering-- being a recovering addict, 1037 00:45:06,412 --> 00:45:08,789 and Mom, you know, finding her happy relationship, 1038 00:45:08,873 --> 00:45:11,334 her healthy relationship in my dad, Jeremy. 1039 00:45:11,417 --> 00:45:12,835 It's something I long for, I want to find. 1040 00:45:12,919 --> 00:45:15,671 So, I think, you know, moving forward with The Bachelorette 1041 00:45:15,755 --> 00:45:17,381 is, like, something I wanna aim towards. 1042 00:45:17,465 --> 00:45:19,675 I appreciate you even coming out here with me, I know it's been... 1043 00:45:20,801 --> 00:45:23,221 -[Liann] A lot today. -...a hell of a ride. I'm sorry for you. 1044 00:45:23,304 --> 00:45:25,640 And I'm sorry for yelling at you the way I did all the way up here. 1045 00:45:25,723 --> 00:45:28,476 I just, I-- I-- There's-- Yeah, a lot of anger in me, too. 1046 00:45:28,559 --> 00:45:29,602 -I know. -[Taylor] There's a lot of anger. 1047 00:45:29,685 --> 00:45:31,938 And you don't deserve that because I think you're an amazing mom. 1048 00:45:32,772 --> 00:45:34,106 I think you're an amazing mom. 1049 00:45:34,190 --> 00:45:38,527 [Liann] It means a lot to be here and to feel Taylor's love. 1050 00:45:38,611 --> 00:45:42,615 It makes me so happy that her dad is enough, and-- and so am I. 1051 00:45:42,698 --> 00:45:46,077 But I want her to feel like she's enough. 1052 00:45:46,577 --> 00:45:50,748 No matter how Brian felt, like, she just deserves better. 1053 00:45:52,041 --> 00:45:53,501 [Taylor] This is your story and your life. 1054 00:45:53,584 --> 00:45:55,086 -I know it brings up a lot-- -No, it's your story. 1055 00:45:55,169 --> 00:45:57,588 It's your-- I'm a part of it, but it's yours. 1056 00:45:57,672 --> 00:45:58,756 We're a part of each other. 1057 00:45:58,839 --> 00:46:00,216 [Taylor] That's true. 1058 00:46:00,299 --> 00:46:01,300 I love you. 1059 00:46:01,384 --> 00:46:03,261 -[Liann] I love you, too. -A lot. 1060 00:46:03,344 --> 00:46:05,346 [♪ gentle music playing] 1061 00:46:11,435 --> 00:46:14,689 [♪ gentle music playing] 1062 00:46:17,566 --> 00:46:20,444 [♪ upbeat music playing] 1063 00:46:21,028 --> 00:46:22,280 ♪ When you get a little older ♪ 1064 00:46:23,030 --> 00:46:25,658 ♪ You get a little bolder, that's right ♪ 1065 00:46:25,992 --> 00:46:27,994 ♪ And you don't really care what the people gotta say ♪ 1066 00:46:28,077 --> 00:46:29,912 ♪ Do you? No ♪ 1067 00:46:29,996 --> 00:46:33,082 ♪ 'Cause you gonna do everything that you wanna do your way ♪ 1068 00:46:33,165 --> 00:46:34,417 ♪ Yep ♪ 1069 00:46:34,500 --> 00:46:35,751 -[Layla] Hello. -Hi! 1070 00:46:35,835 --> 00:46:36,836 -[Layla] How are you? -[Jessi] Good. 1071 00:46:36,919 --> 00:46:38,170 -How are you? -Good. 1072 00:46:38,254 --> 00:46:39,880 I'm just trying to get all this food ready. 1073 00:46:39,964 --> 00:46:41,299 Ooh, yum, that looks good. 1074 00:46:41,382 --> 00:46:42,717 -[Jessi] I know. -Hi, baby. 1075 00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:46,262 I just got back from New York and Jessi invited us all over to her house 1076 00:46:46,345 --> 00:46:47,722 to have a little MomTok meeting 1077 00:46:47,805 --> 00:46:51,267 and discuss the pleasant news of Dakota and Shinia 1078 00:46:51,350 --> 00:46:55,271 and how we're going to navigate that for Taylor in letting her know. 1079 00:46:55,354 --> 00:46:56,772 She leaves for The Bachelorette in the week, 1080 00:46:56,856 --> 00:46:59,817 and I would just hate to set her back when she's done all of this positive work 1081 00:46:59,900 --> 00:47:01,402 to be in a better head space. 1082 00:47:01,485 --> 00:47:03,279 -[Jessi] Hello! -[Miranda] Hello. 1083 00:47:03,779 --> 00:47:05,990 [Jessi] Is that the jacket Shinia borrowed at Stagecoach? 1084 00:47:06,073 --> 00:47:07,950 -How ironic! -Yeah, no, literally. I know. 1085 00:47:08,034 --> 00:47:10,536 I, like, was looking through my coats last night 1086 00:47:10,619 --> 00:47:12,121 and I was like, "Wait, why do I have this?" 1087 00:47:12,204 --> 00:47:13,205 That's hilarious. 1088 00:47:13,289 --> 00:47:15,583 Do you guys wanna take your shoes off? And there's toys upstairs. 1089 00:47:15,666 --> 00:47:17,710 I'm gonna sit 'cause this might be a long one. 1090 00:47:17,793 --> 00:47:19,587 -[Mikayla] Hi. -[Jessi] Hello! 1091 00:47:19,670 --> 00:47:21,047 Taylor is in Colorado with her mom, 1092 00:47:21,130 --> 00:47:23,799 so she's kinda blissfully unaware of, like, what's going on. 1093 00:47:23,883 --> 00:47:27,261 I'm wondering, do we tell Taylor right away when she gets back? Do we wait? 1094 00:47:27,345 --> 00:47:28,804 It's really tricky with Taylor 1095 00:47:28,888 --> 00:47:31,515 because if you tell her, she's gonna crash out, 1096 00:47:31,599 --> 00:47:33,601 but if you don't tell her she's gonna probably crash out later. 1097 00:47:33,684 --> 00:47:35,311 We want what's best for her, 1098 00:47:35,394 --> 00:47:37,104 and so we don't want her sabotaging The Bachelorette 1099 00:47:37,188 --> 00:47:39,607 because that is our priority is to get her on that show 1100 00:47:39,690 --> 00:47:41,108 so she can move on with her life. 1101 00:47:41,609 --> 00:47:43,903 -Oh, I just wanna you alive. -She's so cute. 1102 00:47:43,986 --> 00:47:45,529 [Jessi] I feel like we always have meetings here. 1103 00:47:45,613 --> 00:47:47,239 -It's like the place. -[Layla/Miranda] I know. 1104 00:47:47,323 --> 00:47:49,241 So I called you guys here 'cause I feel like we all found out 1105 00:47:49,325 --> 00:47:50,785 about this Shinia stuff at separate times, 1106 00:47:50,868 --> 00:47:54,372 and I thought coming together to make sure we come up with a plan about Taylor, 1107 00:47:54,455 --> 00:47:56,916 'cause I feel like if one of us tells her, it's gonna blow up. 1108 00:47:56,999 --> 00:47:59,210 [Mikayla] Taylor is gonna be representing MomTok 1109 00:47:59,293 --> 00:48:02,046 to a whole 'nother audience with The Bachelorette viewers 1110 00:48:02,129 --> 00:48:07,343 and it could have consequences for not only her but also MomTok. 1111 00:48:07,676 --> 00:48:09,595 I'm like, "Don't-- Don't mess it up for us, Taylor." 1112 00:48:09,678 --> 00:48:11,639 I'm worried about Dakota telling her. 1113 00:48:11,722 --> 00:48:14,683 -Yeah, I've been curious when you-- -[Mikayla] Yeah, when did you find out? 1114 00:48:14,767 --> 00:48:18,062 I only knew about the first night they hung out and, like, that night. 1115 00:48:18,145 --> 00:48:20,064 I think they're both in the wrong. I don't think this is all Dakota. 1116 00:48:20,147 --> 00:48:21,941 I think she also should've known better. 1117 00:48:22,024 --> 00:48:23,818 It affects-- 'Cause now, I'm put in a bad position. 1118 00:48:23,901 --> 00:48:26,112 -[Mayci] Yeah, it's awkward. -And I'm like, that's what pisses me off, 1119 00:48:26,195 --> 00:48:28,781 is you knew that this was gonna put me in a shitty position. 1120 00:48:28,864 --> 00:48:32,118 I know I will be put in the middle once Taylor finds out, 1121 00:48:32,201 --> 00:48:37,248 and that is why part of me is screaming, "You need to tell her." 1122 00:48:37,331 --> 00:48:38,958 But the other part of me feels like 1123 00:48:39,041 --> 00:48:42,336 I'm giving Dakota exactly what he wants if I tell her. 1124 00:48:42,837 --> 00:48:44,296 [Jessi] What was her reasoning for that? 1125 00:48:44,380 --> 00:48:46,715 I'm just curious. 'Cause she knows how Taylor feels. 1126 00:48:46,799 --> 00:48:48,592 I just think the stuff that he says to these women-- 1127 00:48:48,676 --> 00:48:51,137 [Jessi] He makes them feel like they are the most special person on the planet. 1128 00:48:51,220 --> 00:48:53,472 -But we've all dated a guy like that. -It's love bombing. 1129 00:48:53,556 --> 00:48:56,725 The thing is, is like, he did it to Taylor and Taylor's still in it four years later. 1130 00:48:56,809 --> 00:48:58,269 -[Jessi] I know. -So, I'm like-- 1131 00:48:58,352 --> 00:49:01,355 What Dakota told Jordan is that him and Shinia had made an agreement 1132 00:49:01,439 --> 00:49:03,065 to only exclusively sleep with each other. 1133 00:49:03,149 --> 00:49:05,109 Oh, he, no-- She told me that that night-- 1134 00:49:05,192 --> 00:49:08,696 That first night, he goes, "So what if we made like a sex pact?" 1135 00:49:08,779 --> 00:49:10,906 -And the next day, she told me about it. -A sex pact? 1136 00:49:10,990 --> 00:49:12,992 She was like, "I don't-- This feels really weird." 1137 00:49:13,075 --> 00:49:15,870 And I'm like, "Shinia, that is, like, psychopathic." 1138 00:49:15,953 --> 00:49:16,954 -[Jessi] That is. -[Mikayla] Yeah. 1139 00:49:17,037 --> 00:49:19,373 He, like, wants everything. Wants his cake, he wants to eat it too. 1140 00:49:19,457 --> 00:49:22,293 Like, he needs to have, like, lock him down like, "You only get me." 1141 00:49:22,376 --> 00:49:24,044 And then he's gonna go screw everyone else. 1142 00:49:24,128 --> 00:49:25,546 Okay, I'm fine keeping this from Taylor, 1143 00:49:25,629 --> 00:49:28,340 but if she straight-up asks me, how do I lie to her face? 1144 00:49:28,841 --> 00:49:31,051 Also, it kind of sucks 'cause she's gonna get pissed at us. 1145 00:49:31,135 --> 00:49:33,262 If she knows every single one of us knows, 1146 00:49:33,345 --> 00:49:35,181 -she's going to be livid. -I don't think you'd lie to her face. 1147 00:49:35,264 --> 00:49:37,850 I think you just should say like, "We-- We know and we just-- 1148 00:49:37,933 --> 00:49:39,101 "we're not telling you because you spiral 1149 00:49:39,185 --> 00:49:41,020 and we can't trust what you're gonna do with the information." 1150 00:49:41,103 --> 00:49:42,521 No, we can't say that. 1151 00:49:42,938 --> 00:49:44,398 [Mikayla] We're always tiptoeing around her feelings. 1152 00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:47,193 I'm like, at the end of the day, you have to save yourself. 1153 00:49:47,276 --> 00:49:48,903 We are all trying to save her and she's-- 1154 00:49:48,986 --> 00:49:50,863 It's honestly just making her do worse things, 1155 00:49:50,946 --> 00:49:52,364 -spiral more, to be honest. -Yeah. 1156 00:49:52,448 --> 00:49:54,533 [Jessi groaning] 1157 00:49:55,201 --> 00:49:58,454 I genuinely can't decide, like, morally, if it's better for Taylor not to know 1158 00:49:58,537 --> 00:50:00,164 -or if it's better for her to find out. -Same. 1159 00:50:00,247 --> 00:50:01,582 There's something else he did though. 1160 00:50:02,500 --> 00:50:05,002 And I feel like if she finds out about Shinia, 1161 00:50:05,085 --> 00:50:07,004 it's gonna spiral into the other thing and I'm-- 1162 00:50:07,087 --> 00:50:09,048 If she finds out the other thing, she genuinely won't go. 1163 00:50:09,131 --> 00:50:11,550 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 1164 00:50:11,634 --> 00:50:12,885 What is it? 1165 00:50:12,968 --> 00:50:15,221 [Jessi] He hooked up with Jenna and, like, basically almost had sex with her 1166 00:50:15,304 --> 00:50:16,472 like a couple weeks ago. 1167 00:50:17,139 --> 00:50:19,600 Jenna was the girl that Dakota was hooking up with 1168 00:50:19,683 --> 00:50:23,604 back in the beginning of Taylor and Dakota's relationship. 1169 00:50:23,687 --> 00:50:26,732 He lied about whatever situationship he had with her. 1170 00:50:26,815 --> 00:50:31,904 Jenna is such a huge trigger for Taylor. It's a complete slap in the face. 1171 00:50:32,238 --> 00:50:34,532 He was, like, texting me all day this day he came over to your house 1172 00:50:34,615 --> 00:50:36,909 and he's saying, "Thank you for letting me crash at your house." 1173 00:50:36,992 --> 00:50:39,495 And he came over that night to my house and spent the night and fucked me. 1174 00:50:39,578 --> 00:50:41,330 So, yeah. [chuckles] 1175 00:50:41,872 --> 00:50:44,208 [crying] I hate him. 1176 00:50:44,291 --> 00:50:46,502 [sighs] My God, this is a mess. 1177 00:50:46,585 --> 00:50:48,796 The man continues to stoop lower. 1178 00:50:48,879 --> 00:50:50,923 We thought he went to hell, but hell has a basement. 1179 00:50:51,006 --> 00:50:52,841 Shut the hell up! 1180 00:50:58,931 --> 00:51:01,392 If this comes out, it's all gonna spiral. 1181 00:51:01,475 --> 00:51:02,851 Taylor's still in Colorado. 1182 00:51:02,935 --> 00:51:05,437 She's literally about to go be The Bachelorette. 1183 00:51:05,521 --> 00:51:08,482 Why do I get this opportunity out of all the girls that want this? 1184 00:51:08,566 --> 00:51:10,401 Just because you come with some baggage... 1185 00:51:10,484 --> 00:51:11,485 Some? 1186 00:51:12,611 --> 00:51:13,612 [Mayci] I'm sorry. 1187 00:51:13,696 --> 00:51:16,574 -What do you want, man? -I want to feel loved by my wife again. 1188 00:51:16,657 --> 00:51:18,242 What would you do then? Like, just separate? 1189 00:51:18,325 --> 00:51:22,580 Maybe we don't get back together until we commit to our relationship. 1190 00:51:22,663 --> 00:51:24,164 -I'm not trying to hurt you. -You're not vindictive, 1191 00:51:24,248 --> 00:51:25,624 but I do think you're selfish. 1192 00:51:25,708 --> 00:51:27,585 I just don't know what will happen. I'll probably lose millions. 1193 00:51:27,668 --> 00:51:29,670 [Zac] Do you feel like your relationship with Whitney has improved? 1194 00:51:29,753 --> 00:51:31,171 I don't think you care about me. 1195 00:51:31,255 --> 00:51:35,509 Jen, I was the one that vouched for you every fucking time! 1196 00:51:35,593 --> 00:51:36,594 I'm over it! 1197 00:51:36,677 --> 00:51:37,886 [line ringing] 1198 00:51:37,970 --> 00:51:39,722 -[Miranda] [over phone] Hello? -I'm gonna ask you one time, 1199 00:51:39,805 --> 00:51:41,015 how long have you known? 1200 00:51:41,515 --> 00:51:43,559 She's gonna get called out like the fucking hoe she is. 1201 00:51:43,642 --> 00:51:44,935 Once Taylor sees red... 1202 00:51:45,019 --> 00:51:46,604 I'm gonna fucking fuck them up! 1203 00:51:46,687 --> 00:51:48,397 What are you doing? 1204 00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:51,900 It's the downfall of MomTok, once again. 1205 00:51:51,984 --> 00:51:54,528 ♪♪ 1206 00:51:57,406 --> 00:52:00,409 [♪ upbeat music playing]